Have you ever wondered?
I'm in a state of contemplativeness.. (if that's even a word.. i'm sure you know what i'm talking about, anyway) Even though I don't really know who I can trust.. I -do- know who I -can't- trust. (does that make sense to you?)
I see very clearly the warning signs.. but its like looking at an abandoned, run down, century old place, with a warning sign on the front door... you have that question in the back of your mind, that longs to find out what's on the inside.. it can't be -that- bad... right?
In the very beginning i wanted to turn around and run the other direction... but for some reason i have yet been able to explain to myself, i stayed... and now, -something- is telling me to stay.. walk upstairs..go explore.
Everything I want to hear, my head tells me. But I don't listen because of what I feel.. I don't want to say I feel it in my heart, because that would be crazy. Heh.. my hearts feelings have always led me right smack dab in the middle of nothingness. Or maybe I've never truly felt my hearts promptings. When I try to figure it out, it only confuses me that much more.
I don't want to sound like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. I know its nothing... I just wonder. Is this all about some boy? Could be... Is it just that I wish I couldv'e done some things different.. Could be all of the above. You fugure it out, and be sure to let me know what conclusions you've come to. I think I scare you all sometimes.
There's a deeper look into my thoughts. Have fun with it.. if you can make any sense of it all.
~Krista
I see very clearly the warning signs.. but its like looking at an abandoned, run down, century old place, with a warning sign on the front door... you have that question in the back of your mind, that longs to find out what's on the inside.. it can't be -that- bad... right?
In the very beginning i wanted to turn around and run the other direction... but for some reason i have yet been able to explain to myself, i stayed... and now, -something- is telling me to stay.. walk upstairs..go explore.
Everything I want to hear, my head tells me. But I don't listen because of what I feel.. I don't want to say I feel it in my heart, because that would be crazy. Heh.. my hearts feelings have always led me right smack dab in the middle of nothingness. Or maybe I've never truly felt my hearts promptings. When I try to figure it out, it only confuses me that much more.
I don't want to sound like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. I know its nothing... I just wonder. Is this all about some boy? Could be... Is it just that I wish I couldv'e done some things different.. Could be all of the above. You fugure it out, and be sure to let me know what conclusions you've come to. I think I scare you all sometimes.
There's a deeper look into my thoughts. Have fun with it.. if you can make any sense of it all.
~Krista