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To those that are disappointed in me, i would like to ask you if being mad at me is making a difference in what i did. And how in anyway will it make anything better? I'm not sorry for doing it and i had fun!!! I'm just sad that you feel that being mad at me will change the past, or that some way your making a point!! Because you truly are not, or at least im not finding the point to this. Is it that if i do something you disapprove of i will forever be shunned and wont be excepted any longer. I'm sorry i am not living my life the way you wish i would. But guess what its my life to live no if, ands, or buts. I know i dont make the smartest decisions, but there my decisions to make. And the best thing you can do is just be here for me, but i guess that may be hard for a few of you seeing as the only way you can show you care is by making me feel as small as possible, well i hope you know you have achieved that. But i wont allow you to make me feel like shit any longer, im done with these guilt trips. I dont fucking care any longer. You may live your life as safe as possible but i like to have fun once and awhile, as horrible as it may sound. I know you asked me earlier why do it, well its the only way to make everything ok.