Blargness ERG
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Blargness ERG
Current mood: depressed
So sometimes i just really feel like the world is ignoring me. I don't mean the world in the sense that it hasn't given me what it owes me type idea, cause it owes me nothing, i mean more that the people in it that i interact with tend to seem to ignore me. this isn't something that's just in my head really. The times i've had friends that i've hung out with i swear, i'd start a sentence and always i would be interupted by them and i never would get to finish my sentences. My family does the same thing too, especially my mother. she has at times forgot to even tell me when dinner was finished. but she out right ignores me, there will be no one talking and i will say something important to her and she doesn't even acknowledge i've said anything. or on the occasions that people were around and she was talking i would wait till she stopped talking to try to talk to her and once i started she would just start to talk again herself. I hate being ignored so much and yet some reason people find the way to do it. i mean i don't have a quiet voice at all, and it's not a voice that doesn't seem to stick out i think, but i still get ignored. i think this is one reason i tend to take myself away from people as a whole, feeling ignored makes me feel unliked and that makes me feel lonely. At least when i decide to not be with people it's my choice and on my terms. I dunno i'm just rambling again and nobody will even care about this so i am out. the end.
Blargness ERG
Current mood: depressed
So sometimes i just really feel like the world is ignoring me. I don't mean the world in the sense that it hasn't given me what it owes me type idea, cause it owes me nothing, i mean more that the people in it that i interact with tend to seem to ignore me. this isn't something that's just in my head really. The times i've had friends that i've hung out with i swear, i'd start a sentence and always i would be interupted by them and i never would get to finish my sentences. My family does the same thing too, especially my mother. she has at times forgot to even tell me when dinner was finished. but she out right ignores me, there will be no one talking and i will say something important to her and she doesn't even acknowledge i've said anything. or on the occasions that people were around and she was talking i would wait till she stopped talking to try to talk to her and once i started she would just start to talk again herself. I hate being ignored so much and yet some reason people find the way to do it. i mean i don't have a quiet voice at all, and it's not a voice that doesn't seem to stick out i think, but i still get ignored. i think this is one reason i tend to take myself away from people as a whole, feeling ignored makes me feel unliked and that makes me feel lonely. At least when i decide to not be with people it's my choice and on my terms. I dunno i'm just rambling again and nobody will even care about this so i am out. the end.