Apr 23, 2005 23:03
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Birthday blues
Ok so my birthday is coming up, march 5th to be exact, and i persoanlly don't like my birthday. i can't honestly remember the last time i had a good birthday. always there's something that makes it horrid. often times it's my fahter getting pissed of at something completely stupid and causeing problems. one year i was a paul barer for my birthday, that's a good time. i hate not having someone to spend my birthday with, mainly meaning i hate not having a gf for my birthday, makes me sad. often times i also feel like i get let down for my birthday. last year i asked a bunch of friends to send me pictures for my birthday to cheer me up on it, and a total of 0 of them ended up doing it even tho they all said they would, that felt nice.
so it's almost been twenty years and i feel like i've done nothing good in my life. most people my age have partied it up, had multiple relationships have loads of interesting stories, me i have none of those. now most people say "well u should go out and meet people" yeah i know, but i've got problems, and i have trouble interacting with people so i don't see that happening. i just need to find someone really. maybe when i turn 21 and go out to the bars, i will be able to drink enough to losen up and i will pick up a girl or something i dunno. beh things just seem way to hopless
I HATE MY BIRTHDAY
THE END