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[xxthispoetxx]

It's so hard to look up anymore, being stuck in this house. My  life is already ruined, I don't get why I need to continue  it, honestly. My parents are killing themselves with drugs and alcohol, leaving their tremendous debts to me. They won't get out of bed all day, I don't think they've seen the sun in  weeks. I haven't had a real conversation  with them in years. I haven't heard a word of truth, I'm not in my adolescense anymore, I can  tell a lie when I hear one. They are slobs, leaving all the housework up to me, but when you're so depressed you have absolutely no motivation to do anything, and it's embarassing. I don't want  a single soul walking into this house, seeing what a mess we all are. Today my dad was so fucked up he just sat up and fucking projectile vomited his whiskey all over the carpet I just vaccuumed. I felt like it  was a big "fuck you" in my face. Not that I haven't gotten that my whole life from them. It's not fair that everyone else in my family  got to grow up with the old, good mom and dad.  I get stuck with these pathetic assholes and no one even tries to help me out.
I  HAVE NO  WHERE TO FUCKING GO,  I HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING.

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