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so today in school was going pretty well. I started talking to mike again. Then at the end of the period i find out mr.lascala recommended that mike switches to honors bio, so as of next semester he isn't in any of my classes, except for eight but im not sure if he made that up or not. That made me really upset. I just want to go back to what we were. It seems like we broke up or something...god im such an ass, why do i have to go and get so attached like this?? It would be easier if i had someone i was the least bit attracted to that i actually had a chance with to like. But no there is no one. And i am afraid until there is someone i am going to be stuck on mike. So then i saw him after school wtih gabi and ashley. OMG that was so much fun until i saw him. Gabi was running around pretending to be a german spy and me her and ashley were taking pictures it was great fun. Then we had to see mike and nick. So it just seems like he moved on w/e..it doesn't seem to bother him in the least bit. I just wanted to hug him again and i just wanted to have everything we used to have even if it wasn't very much. I fucked things up so bad. It hurts twice as bad as it did before, all i wanted to do was stop getting hurt, i just hurt myself more. I just want him back. I need to get over this. I cant concentrate, i cant sleep. I need help i just want to get over this. I need someone to talk to. I feel i cant talk to anyone about it anymore because they are getting annoyed, or they think i am obsessed with myself, and that's the last thing i want people thinking.