i'll breathe you in. you are my oxygen alone.
it's 8:51, i'm sitting in art survey not paying attention, and wondering why the hell school starts so damn early.
i hate tuesdays almost as much as i hate sundays/mondays.i have to get through 4 more classes before lunch and i'm so fucking tired.
yesterday i was so happy about my math quiz and i was trying not to think about how much i suck at bio and french and how i dont know what's going on in english and the fact that i have a math test tomorrow,english assignment due today,30page atf due tomorrow,and a art survey test friday- but now i'm thinking about all that stuff and i'm getting stressed. i wish this week would have been a short week and i wouldn't have come to school today but i have a game tomorrow and practice today. when is basketball over? NEVER. i just want to get through today and be ok when it's all over. i'm loosing my voice and my throat really hurts today andd i really dont want this class to end.
:-(.
after writting that huge entry that got deleted i've felt a lot better. i really think it helped to write everything that's wrong out so i know what/how i dont want to feel ever again. dont get me wrong, i'm not suddenly happy or anything, i just realized how many things i want to try again and get straightened out. As many times as i've asked for a second chance i think i actually might be getting one this time for something but i'm not sure because i always get my hopes up and then i get crushed, so i really dont want to think about it too much- but it's kinda hard not to smile about it once in awhile :o).
i see people in the hall talking with their boyfriends or the people they like and it seems like this time of year everyone gets really close to the person they want to be with and people begin to hook up like everyday...it's weird. At the same time i realized, i want that(minus the gross public affection)but for real this time. I'm ready to stop being a imature about calling and shit like that and just see where it goes....none of this made sense. ThE EnD
class is over :0(.
XOXO
i hate tuesdays almost as much as i hate sundays/mondays.i have to get through 4 more classes before lunch and i'm so fucking tired.
yesterday i was so happy about my math quiz and i was trying not to think about how much i suck at bio and french and how i dont know what's going on in english and the fact that i have a math test tomorrow,english assignment due today,30page atf due tomorrow,and a art survey test friday- but now i'm thinking about all that stuff and i'm getting stressed. i wish this week would have been a short week and i wouldn't have come to school today but i have a game tomorrow and practice today. when is basketball over? NEVER. i just want to get through today and be ok when it's all over. i'm loosing my voice and my throat really hurts today andd i really dont want this class to end.
:-(.
after writting that huge entry that got deleted i've felt a lot better. i really think it helped to write everything that's wrong out so i know what/how i dont want to feel ever again. dont get me wrong, i'm not suddenly happy or anything, i just realized how many things i want to try again and get straightened out. As many times as i've asked for a second chance i think i actually might be getting one this time for something but i'm not sure because i always get my hopes up and then i get crushed, so i really dont want to think about it too much- but it's kinda hard not to smile about it once in awhile :o).
i see people in the hall talking with their boyfriends or the people they like and it seems like this time of year everyone gets really close to the person they want to be with and people begin to hook up like everyday...it's weird. At the same time i realized, i want that(minus the gross public affection)but for real this time. I'm ready to stop being a imature about calling and shit like that and just see where it goes....none of this made sense. ThE EnD
class is over :0(.
XOXO