Been doing WAY too much thinking...
Today in English we had to read this short story, and of course I have horrible ADD so instead of reading I sat a thought about everything. There's this boy and I miss him more then anything in the world, even though I have no idea why. I don't like him anymore then a friend, and now I'm not really sure if I ever liked him as anything other then a friend. I think he was just someone that I thought I could finally have to myself, boy did that last...Why do I feel this need to be with him and talk to him and see him all the time? I can't stand being that girl who needs attention all the time, but I do. I'm the type of girl who gets one compliment from someone and I melt and would do anyhting for them. The only problem is, most of the time they dont want me to do anything for them.
Why is it that some people get everything and others get nothing? And the people that get everything really dont deserve it...at all. Who is the one that decides who gets to be happy and who doesnt? Does the past really make the future? or is it just fate? does any of this really matter? honestly, does it matter how well we do in school or how many friends we have or how many people we sleep with if our future is all set up for us? What is the point of working your ass off to succeed even though you never will. Why can't we just be born with a users guide that tells us exactly what we are meant to be and where we will go and who we will go there with. Life would be so much easier.
Why does he love her and not me? Why can't I just be happy for more then a week at a time.
There are billions of people in this world. why is it that we only meet thses certain people who change our life completely. If I had never 're-met' Christopher I would have never met Jeremy. The one guy who changed my life completely. I dont know how but he made me change. I hate that we arent friends anymore because I would have died for that kid. and sadly i probly still would. If it wasn't for Jeremy, I would have never met Kayleigh Alycia, my other half, my sister, my bestfriendforeverandalways and I seriously have no clue what I would do with out that girl. She gets me through my day and I love her with all my heart. And if it wasnt for Kayleigh, I wouldn't have ever met this girl that I'm simply crazy about. If only I had a chance...
For all of you who took the time to read this, I'm sorry something dont make sense.
♥
Why is it that some people get everything and others get nothing? And the people that get everything really dont deserve it...at all. Who is the one that decides who gets to be happy and who doesnt? Does the past really make the future? or is it just fate? does any of this really matter? honestly, does it matter how well we do in school or how many friends we have or how many people we sleep with if our future is all set up for us? What is the point of working your ass off to succeed even though you never will. Why can't we just be born with a users guide that tells us exactly what we are meant to be and where we will go and who we will go there with. Life would be so much easier.
Why does he love her and not me? Why can't I just be happy for more then a week at a time.
There are billions of people in this world. why is it that we only meet thses certain people who change our life completely. If I had never 're-met' Christopher I would have never met Jeremy. The one guy who changed my life completely. I dont know how but he made me change. I hate that we arent friends anymore because I would have died for that kid. and sadly i probly still would. If it wasn't for Jeremy, I would have never met Kayleigh Alycia, my other half, my sister, my bestfriendforeverandalways and I seriously have no clue what I would do with out that girl. She gets me through my day and I love her with all my heart. And if it wasnt for Kayleigh, I wouldn't have ever met this girl that I'm simply crazy about. If only I had a chance...
For all of you who took the time to read this, I'm sorry something dont make sense.
♥