enough.
I don't know what's going to happen.
And it scares the hell out of me.
I'm trying to live with it though.
I just hope that the one thing i can count on in my life.
doesn't turn out like all the things that have failed me.
i wish i could fast foreward about 8 years.
skip anything that might hurt me.
i thought i knew where things were going.
i thought for once there was something stable.
now i'm not sure what the future holds.
and that's just sent all my defense measures up again.
it's like this siren going off in my mind.
trying desperately to protect me from getting hurt, again.
i know what i want the future to hold.
what i need it to hold.
i'll be fine.
i'll be normal.
i'll not expect anything.
i'll take things in stride.
i'll not overthink things.
i'll let things go.
i'll be fine.
i love him. more than anything.
and i'm happy, right now.
that's enough, right?