blehhhh
wow. it's almost one in the morning, i have to get up in 4 hours for work. i've been crying for the past hour or so, for what reason? .. i'm not quite sure. there are wayyy too many things to just blame it on one. the past two days have been extremely miserable. tonite i can't even put my finger on the one thing that has sent me over the edge. i just feel.. uneasy about something. my whole body feels like it's going to blow up, i just want to scream. i've never, in my life, felt this... just, not right. i just feel like i've let a lot of people down lately. i've been extremely selfish, &i haven't noticed it up until right now. i hate letting people down, though i do it so much. i'm an extremely horrible friend. i will probably delete this entry tomorrow because.. most likely none of you really want to hear about it. i haven't been there for any of you, so why should you even take the time to listen to my problems? i've been so happy lately, for no reason, &now all of a sudden it seems like all the time that i've forgotten about being sad has caught up with me.. or something. if that even makes sense... i want to yell at myself for you all, save you all the trouble. i dunno, i need to go try &sleep.. again. goodnite.
She kisses everyone goodbye.
&waves her middle finger high.
They're never gonna mess with her again.
The drama queen is seventeen.
&sleeping with the boys for free.
She's got a reputation of being easy.
Everytime they put her down,
She makes a fist &tears roll down.
She packs her bags &plans to run away.
She's saying goodbye, &leaving tonight.
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops.
She thinks about herself,
& cares about nobody else.
Because the only friends she has all put her down.
They hate her when she's beautiful.
&even more when she's a fool....