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hays im at skool now... its boring.... im suposed to be takin a test but oh well.... um... right now life is really starting to suck... every1 is un happy now! cat nikita sean >_< the 3* ppl i love the most!! n that juss sux! they all mean sooooooooo much to me.... idk ne more... its all hard to deal with... but im doing it! i wish i knew wut was gunna happen in the future so i could juss see that every1 was happy or sad so i can help the sad ones the most.. but that would change the future so it wouldnt be a good idea...but idk! i just wish that every1 was happy! but that can never happen!!! >_< if there was ANYTING i could do to make them happy i would sooooooooooo do it!! but i dont think there is >_< gawd! why the fuck does life gotta be so hard!?!?!?!?!?!? damn! ne wayz! i should juss stop complaining about all this SHIT! idk... i was really really hoping that cat would stop cuttin after she started datin matt... she said that she would be SOOOOOO incredibly happy... but idk... it doesnt seem like it ne more.... n i wish that nikita could get over kevin n be happy... n find some1 that would never ever make her cry.... i juss wish that sean would be happy... idk... i juss wish that somehow EVERY1 would be happy but noooo the asshole who controls how every1 feels is being sum dubmass fuck! dammit! gah!! idk.. i should juss stop...
um yesterday i went to a party w/ nikita kevin n matt b. it was fun... no drama... thank gawd! but i didnt kno ne of those ppl so yah... um.. i was suposed to be home at 10... but i got home at like 10:45.. yah... the party was some superbowl party.... n it was fun... kevin kept trying to make me "happy" but i didnt let him.. i was scared i was gunna do sumtin bad! i would never ever do sumtin like that!! i mean it would hurt sean A LOT... (i think) n it would hurt me A LOT... n idk.. oh well.. im juss happpy he stopped after he saw that i didnt like it at all.... but um... im switchin classes so ill write more later
much love
X:x.Sara.x:X
I Love You Sean!