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I suppose I cannot stay away forever right?
I have been pretty diligently recording thoughts in a paper journal.It is a bit liberating to write anything I want,but also makes me worry that someone might stumble upon it and read it.
X-mas was uneventful, but nice.I loved spending time with my family,well with one exception.My father was being his usual drunken self, and that just made me sad.I don't understand how he can continue his destructive behaviour when he has lost everything because of it.He has missed out and knowing who his children are and a loving wife.The night before he was going to leave Kelsey and I went to see him, well he was passed out.Kelsey told him we weren't going to be staying for much longer and he should come chat with us.He didn't get up, and we left.
I just finished my first week back, and ick. I am now once again all alone.I don't say a word unless someone else initiates conversation.Which is especially detrimental in my Spanish class as participation is required for a higher grade.I wonder if I'm wasting my academic experience by being so isolating in my behaviour.This semester will not go by quickly enough for me.
I will have a job at a cleaning company, all I need to do is fill out an application.That should make things a bit less stressful.
Indigo has lost nearly all of her hair, and looks drugged/drowsy all the time.She's getting closer and closer to finishing chemo though.
sitting with her daddy
Now she gets both chemo medications at the same time,which means she will crash harder after wards.However the last week when she first started this she was actually eating and running around playing, it was great. She also doesn't have to go every week now, just every two weeks. I don't know how Carri and Adam can do it, they all amaze me.Currently they are in Florida on vacation,I hope they're having a great time they so deserve it.
Kelsey is tossing around the idea of moving to Missoula next year for school.I don't know about that one.There isn't a theater department there :( Plus that would mean starting all over again, I will think about it when I finish up the rest of this semester.
I will save the I'm so ugly rant for another time,I'm sleepy.
I have been pretty diligently recording thoughts in a paper journal.It is a bit liberating to write anything I want,but also makes me worry that someone might stumble upon it and read it.
X-mas was uneventful, but nice.I loved spending time with my family,well with one exception.My father was being his usual drunken self, and that just made me sad.I don't understand how he can continue his destructive behaviour when he has lost everything because of it.He has missed out and knowing who his children are and a loving wife.The night before he was going to leave Kelsey and I went to see him, well he was passed out.Kelsey told him we weren't going to be staying for much longer and he should come chat with us.He didn't get up, and we left.
I just finished my first week back, and ick. I am now once again all alone.I don't say a word unless someone else initiates conversation.Which is especially detrimental in my Spanish class as participation is required for a higher grade.I wonder if I'm wasting my academic experience by being so isolating in my behaviour.This semester will not go by quickly enough for me.
I will have a job at a cleaning company, all I need to do is fill out an application.That should make things a bit less stressful.
Indigo has lost nearly all of her hair, and looks drugged/drowsy all the time.She's getting closer and closer to finishing chemo though.
sitting with her daddy
Now she gets both chemo medications at the same time,which means she will crash harder after wards.However the last week when she first started this she was actually eating and running around playing, it was great. She also doesn't have to go every week now, just every two weeks. I don't know how Carri and Adam can do it, they all amaze me.Currently they are in Florida on vacation,I hope they're having a great time they so deserve it.
Kelsey is tossing around the idea of moving to Missoula next year for school.I don't know about that one.There isn't a theater department there :( Plus that would mean starting all over again, I will think about it when I finish up the rest of this semester.
I will save the I'm so ugly rant for another time,I'm sleepy.