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Okay I admit it. I never thought I could be happy again..what with everything that happend w/ Chris..how guys can be such asses [yes shocker i did say it!] and with drama that certain friends can bring...but now..i dont know..things have just been put into place..take for instance::
Friend wise:: throughout my 4 years at neuqua i changed groups. but who hasn't? I was trying to figure out what kind of friends i wanted and who i thought would be a good friend. i made some. i kept some. i lost some. but i can say this..if it honestly wasn't for Jenna...my friendship with other people would be shattered. She honestly molded me into such an amazing person and im so much more confident in myself to speak to people and open up in a way that i never had before. as for the people that i thought were my friend..well just say that they were the onest that stabbed me in the back when i wasn't looking..way to many times..and i learned to let go and hold my ground. and now==its better. i love everyone that i hang out with and the new people im meeting. it just amazes me how great the world is when you have friends that love you no matter what. thanks guys.
Relationship wise:: its had its up and downs. not to say that ive ever been the relationship 'type'. sure..ive had boyfriends but..a serious one? ive always wanted to fall in love with someone and have them share the same. has it happend yet..no...but i can wish can't i? Through the past relationships I've had..i know what im looking for in a guy and what im not. Right now I have a boyfriend..Zach..and he makes me feel so comfortable around him..like I could talk to him about anything and everything at like 2am and he'd listen to me. I dont know I can't really explain it..but I love being with him. It sounds pretty obessive I know considering we've only been together for a week..and i dont mean for it to be..but..i dont know. its just a feeling i get. im such a dork i know lol. goodness.
School wise:: We all know that I am not the smartest person..umm unlike most of my friends that have like 3.7-4.0 good god. But thast awsome guys and you only make me want to work harder and acheive that..[not that i ever could but ya know lol] I've only averaging a cumulitive of a 3.3 and to some..sure thats pretty good..but to me..i really am proud of that. considering all ive been through in my past..the complications..what i could have been or how i could be living my life not as a 'normal' person..but being much worse them i really am. sure i know that i could never get into UOfI or Loyla..which i guess is why im headin to COD..but im gonna try really hard and do good there so i can get into a good school. I mean i dont even have to take study skills anymore this year [my 1st time ever!] and i think im actually doing pretty well! YAY!
--alright so basically..if you can't tell..life is pretty sweet right now. and you have an IN DETAIL description of everythin going on and what im proud of. so leave some of those comments that you all love to leave me alrighty?--
<33Cait
Friend wise:: throughout my 4 years at neuqua i changed groups. but who hasn't? I was trying to figure out what kind of friends i wanted and who i thought would be a good friend. i made some. i kept some. i lost some. but i can say this..if it honestly wasn't for Jenna...my friendship with other people would be shattered. She honestly molded me into such an amazing person and im so much more confident in myself to speak to people and open up in a way that i never had before. as for the people that i thought were my friend..well just say that they were the onest that stabbed me in the back when i wasn't looking..way to many times..and i learned to let go and hold my ground. and now==its better. i love everyone that i hang out with and the new people im meeting. it just amazes me how great the world is when you have friends that love you no matter what. thanks guys.
Relationship wise:: its had its up and downs. not to say that ive ever been the relationship 'type'. sure..ive had boyfriends but..a serious one? ive always wanted to fall in love with someone and have them share the same. has it happend yet..no...but i can wish can't i? Through the past relationships I've had..i know what im looking for in a guy and what im not. Right now I have a boyfriend..Zach..and he makes me feel so comfortable around him..like I could talk to him about anything and everything at like 2am and he'd listen to me. I dont know I can't really explain it..but I love being with him. It sounds pretty obessive I know considering we've only been together for a week..and i dont mean for it to be..but..i dont know. its just a feeling i get. im such a dork i know lol. goodness.
School wise:: We all know that I am not the smartest person..umm unlike most of my friends that have like 3.7-4.0 good god. But thast awsome guys and you only make me want to work harder and acheive that..[not that i ever could but ya know lol] I've only averaging a cumulitive of a 3.3 and to some..sure thats pretty good..but to me..i really am proud of that. considering all ive been through in my past..the complications..what i could have been or how i could be living my life not as a 'normal' person..but being much worse them i really am. sure i know that i could never get into UOfI or Loyla..which i guess is why im headin to COD..but im gonna try really hard and do good there so i can get into a good school. I mean i dont even have to take study skills anymore this year [my 1st time ever!] and i think im actually doing pretty well! YAY!
--alright so basically..if you can't tell..life is pretty sweet right now. and you have an IN DETAIL description of everythin going on and what im proud of. so leave some of those comments that you all love to leave me alrighty?--
<33Cait