Can we say bipolar class?
OMG my dad is drunk and babbling on and on about stuff. Its cute in a way. My papi. Anyways, I was trying to take a bath because I hurt and I want to bathe and go to bed and he kept on talking and talking and talking. He was so drunk I wanted to yell at him for driving home. I love my dad.
Auditions today. It went well. I know Im going to be sore tomorrow. Not that Im not sore right now. Or I havent been sore for 4 days already!!!! Im sick as well. Congested, which sucks because I feel all dazed and tired. I took a nap today. It made me happy. Work was busy. Im exhausted.
Went to Erik & Jarrods house last night. Everyone got really drunk. Not I! I had auditions I couldnt drink. I spent the night though because I was too tired to drive.
I havent been able to talk to Shawnje. Boooo.
Lately, I have been very down. I feel like crying. I cant cry, but I do feel like it. Im trying to keep myself busy so I dont think about it. I have stopped smoking. Sorta. I have to not go to a party at Jarrods for a week or so. I always smoke over there. They force feed me cigs. Damn you RUTH!!!! hehehe stop giving me cigs. I always want to stop smoking weed. Last night I was sad. I wasnt thinking about past memories, trouble Im having right now, I was laughing having a good old time, but I knew something wasnt right with my life because I have to smoke to laugh. I dunno. Im tired Im exhausted. Who knows what Im saying. I need a vicodin. Yeah....listen to me. "pot is bad...la la la...gimme a vIc!" Im stupid. Where am I going in life? Why dont ppl love me?
I tell guys when they ask me out or say they are flirting or stufff, that I dont date ppl. Its sad. Dating is a scary thing. Men are evil. I dont have time to pick and choose who is going to be good for me. Its a waste of fucking time!!! Im tired of being hurt. Im tired of being sad, depressed, over some guy! ugh!!!! it makes me wanna scream! damnit. Now im emotional. blah. screw the world.
Auditions today. It went well. I know Im going to be sore tomorrow. Not that Im not sore right now. Or I havent been sore for 4 days already!!!! Im sick as well. Congested, which sucks because I feel all dazed and tired. I took a nap today. It made me happy. Work was busy. Im exhausted.
Went to Erik & Jarrods house last night. Everyone got really drunk. Not I! I had auditions I couldnt drink. I spent the night though because I was too tired to drive.
I havent been able to talk to Shawnje. Boooo.
Lately, I have been very down. I feel like crying. I cant cry, but I do feel like it. Im trying to keep myself busy so I dont think about it. I have stopped smoking. Sorta. I have to not go to a party at Jarrods for a week or so. I always smoke over there. They force feed me cigs. Damn you RUTH!!!! hehehe stop giving me cigs. I always want to stop smoking weed. Last night I was sad. I wasnt thinking about past memories, trouble Im having right now, I was laughing having a good old time, but I knew something wasnt right with my life because I have to smoke to laugh. I dunno. Im tired Im exhausted. Who knows what Im saying. I need a vicodin. Yeah....listen to me. "pot is bad...la la la...gimme a vIc!" Im stupid. Where am I going in life? Why dont ppl love me?
I tell guys when they ask me out or say they are flirting or stufff, that I dont date ppl. Its sad. Dating is a scary thing. Men are evil. I dont have time to pick and choose who is going to be good for me. Its a waste of fucking time!!! Im tired of being hurt. Im tired of being sad, depressed, over some guy! ugh!!!! it makes me wanna scream! damnit. Now im emotional. blah. screw the world.