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[xxsupercpxx]

Wow... I dont even know how to start a journal entry when my head is filled with so many clouds and blinders. I am such a lost cause... I really am. I am so miserable in my own life and how do you prevent that??? Its not like you can just drop it and buy a new life like a cell phone service. I'm stuck with it. And the more I work at being happy,

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[plaidstripes]

You're problem is not that you're becoming a horrid person that no one wants to be around... it's that you're isolating yourself.. not because you think you're not good enough, but BECAUSE you think you're not good enough.

i think you fear being alone a lot more than you'd admit. there is always someone there for you if you'd let them be. i know i'm not so great at picking up the phone and calling, but that's only because every time i call you you're busy. if you needed someone to talk to i would leave any where i was to talk to you. you're only alone if you let yourself be. chantel would do the same.

over all...

take a step back.. a huge breath... exhale
and realize that you're life sucks because you're allowing it to.
you are in control.
so don't feel sorry for yourself. just live. call people. do things. have fun. let people love you.
no boy, for a long time, will ever be as good or as special to you as your friends. they will hurt you for a long time before they're grown up enough to care and love for you the way that you deserve. so put friends first. even if you feel like tel doesn't do that for you.

i love you.
i'm all out of advice cause my life sucks too
i know how to fix my own... i'm just not strong enough yet.

you're beautiful.
and ohhh so wonderful...

so smile more and don't let things get to you.

put yourself first