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[xxstupidxslutxx]

Why is it that i cannot feel anything.
all day
it is as though im sleep walking almost
im there.
but im not at all.

and then i go to the beach
and i have such vivid thoughts
and something in my brain ticks off
and my mood is automatically lifted.

I
love
that.

I can just sit there.
by myself.
and think
about everything
and nothing
and i could do it forever.

I love thinking.
not even deep thoughts persay.
just to think
about what im doing later
maybe
or a joke someone told me.
anything.
you can think about anything you want
and you never stop
and i just love that.

ps. lily there is no such thing as the mood "empty"
damnit!!!!
rofl rofl art class.