Crazy Day
Ok I had the worst mood swings today. Woke up ~ angry, didn't wanna go to school. That's everyday thou. After a while, I was cool thou. I didn't fight with anyone all day and I had a lot of fun in study hall and such. I come home and my dad didn't leave me money to get my hurr cut. So I get angry about that. Then I went to my job interview and they told me they couldn't hire me because I wasn't 18... I had another freak out. But then I saw Pete and he made me feel all better.
But then I had to go to my mom's job to get money to get my hair cut and I got stuck in traffic. That pissed me off. Then I had to get gas, and it took forever. Pissed me off more. Then I couldn't find a place to get my hurr cut... Freaking out by this point.
Then I FINALLY get my hurr cut and it comes out like SHIIITTTTTT.... that's it! I FREAKED!!
Plus, I went to KFC for dinner and I forgot to get my change so I had to go back to get it... yeah, I freaked out.
But I go to Pete's to escape. And I feel so much better.
So then me and Lauren ventured to the hockey game later on that evening. We had good times. She really scares me as a driver thou. But it's all good cuz I'm sure I'm probably not any better. Plus I'm a bad influence on Lauren. lol.
But then.... on the way home from the game... we're all talking (me, pete, and keegan) and it's all cool... joking around and shit. Then my bf makes a drug reference to Keegan. Odd, because I didn't think my bf did these types of things. Like I know he drinks and whatever, which doesn't bother me but fucking what he did I think is fucking dirty and disgusting and I despise all people that do it. It makes me angry. But I didn't say anything cuz Keegan was there and I didn't want to cause a scene, but now I feel like I should have... because it's like eatting away at me and bothering me to no end. And I don't know what bothers me more... the fact that he did it or the fact that he never told me he did it. He kinda just like, talked about it openly with Keegan like I knew. I thought he didn't do this shit. Oh my god, it pissed me off so much. And now it's just harboring inside of me... this anger... and the next time I see him I know it's just gonna explode out of me in the most negative way possible. I should have just fucking said something.
I just don't wanna fight with him cuz we've been doing so well and I don't wanna cause problems.
But having this eat away at me isn't helping either.
I don't know what to do :(
I hate this.
Ahhhhhhh.
I need sleep.
It's fucking 1:30 in the AM now and I am tired.
I wanna go to St. Joe's tomorrow.
I really don't think I wanna go away to college.
Many reasons.
But I think we all know the main one... no matter how much he doesn't wanna be this reason he is the BIGGEST part of my life and I don't wanna lose that ever.
I love him.
Even thou I'm agrivated at him tonite, I still love him.
Argh.
I have to go.
~*~Kay-tee~*~
But then I had to go to my mom's job to get money to get my hair cut and I got stuck in traffic. That pissed me off. Then I had to get gas, and it took forever. Pissed me off more. Then I couldn't find a place to get my hurr cut... Freaking out by this point.
Then I FINALLY get my hurr cut and it comes out like SHIIITTTTTT.... that's it! I FREAKED!!
Plus, I went to KFC for dinner and I forgot to get my change so I had to go back to get it... yeah, I freaked out.
But I go to Pete's to escape. And I feel so much better.
So then me and Lauren ventured to the hockey game later on that evening. We had good times. She really scares me as a driver thou. But it's all good cuz I'm sure I'm probably not any better. Plus I'm a bad influence on Lauren. lol.
But then.... on the way home from the game... we're all talking (me, pete, and keegan) and it's all cool... joking around and shit. Then my bf makes a drug reference to Keegan. Odd, because I didn't think my bf did these types of things. Like I know he drinks and whatever, which doesn't bother me but fucking what he did I think is fucking dirty and disgusting and I despise all people that do it. It makes me angry. But I didn't say anything cuz Keegan was there and I didn't want to cause a scene, but now I feel like I should have... because it's like eatting away at me and bothering me to no end. And I don't know what bothers me more... the fact that he did it or the fact that he never told me he did it. He kinda just like, talked about it openly with Keegan like I knew. I thought he didn't do this shit. Oh my god, it pissed me off so much. And now it's just harboring inside of me... this anger... and the next time I see him I know it's just gonna explode out of me in the most negative way possible. I should have just fucking said something.
I just don't wanna fight with him cuz we've been doing so well and I don't wanna cause problems.
But having this eat away at me isn't helping either.
I don't know what to do :(
I hate this.
Ahhhhhhh.
I need sleep.
It's fucking 1:30 in the AM now and I am tired.
I wanna go to St. Joe's tomorrow.
I really don't think I wanna go away to college.
Many reasons.
But I think we all know the main one... no matter how much he doesn't wanna be this reason he is the BIGGEST part of my life and I don't wanna lose that ever.
I love him.
Even thou I'm agrivated at him tonite, I still love him.
Argh.
I have to go.
~*~Kay-tee~*~