for myself, really. excuse the rambling.
i need to post in here more when i'm happy but it does seem to help my tummy feel a little better when it's really hurting soooo here i am again.
i woke up this morning to a phone call from my dad. he's been in MI for the past 2 weeks because my grandma has been very ill with pneumonia. she got very sick and was in the hospital last year for a while and managed to pull out of it, but has been on oxygen ever since. anyway, i missed my dad's call but i just knew. i was afraid to call him back because i knew he was going to confirm what i have been afraid of since she went into the hospital...she had passed away this morning, Mother's Day. she was my last living grandparent.
i feel very fortunate that my grandma has been a major part of my life. she was there for my birth and much of my childhood. sadly, the last time i saw her was when we visited last summer and she had asked me to pick out something of hers that i'd like to keep...just in case. it was really hard to do so, because it made me fear that she thought it might be the last time we'd see each other. i managed to pick out some beautiful antique teacups with her help. i have some others from my Grandma Mundall, who has also passed away.
i received a card from her for Valentine's Day in which she said that she hoped i would be able to visit in the spring with my dad. unfortunately, i wasn't able to and i so wish i could have. i last spoke to her on my birthday (April 27th) and, although it was the day after she was admitted to the hospital, she had started getting better and she was able to wish me a happy birthday. it meant so much to me. i guess when she woke up that morning my aunt asked her if she knew what day it was and she said, "well, of course i do! it's Allison's birthday." definitely the best birthday gift of all.
friday i finally got around to mailing her (grand)mother's day gift. it will arrive Wed, the day i will be flying in for her funeral. :( i am kicking myself for not having sent it sooner...oh well. i did get to tell her i loved her very much on the phone, at least.
my dad said she fell asleep on Saturday and just never woke up. he said she was complaining of pain before she fell asleep and then was very peaceful. i was out with friends late Sat night and i suddenly had this overwhelmingly sad feeling come over me. it seemed inexplicable because i had been having a good time and boom there it was. like i just knew.
she was an amazing lady and i will miss her greatly. <3
i woke up this morning to a phone call from my dad. he's been in MI for the past 2 weeks because my grandma has been very ill with pneumonia. she got very sick and was in the hospital last year for a while and managed to pull out of it, but has been on oxygen ever since. anyway, i missed my dad's call but i just knew. i was afraid to call him back because i knew he was going to confirm what i have been afraid of since she went into the hospital...she had passed away this morning, Mother's Day. she was my last living grandparent.
i feel very fortunate that my grandma has been a major part of my life. she was there for my birth and much of my childhood. sadly, the last time i saw her was when we visited last summer and she had asked me to pick out something of hers that i'd like to keep...just in case. it was really hard to do so, because it made me fear that she thought it might be the last time we'd see each other. i managed to pick out some beautiful antique teacups with her help. i have some others from my Grandma Mundall, who has also passed away.
i received a card from her for Valentine's Day in which she said that she hoped i would be able to visit in the spring with my dad. unfortunately, i wasn't able to and i so wish i could have. i last spoke to her on my birthday (April 27th) and, although it was the day after she was admitted to the hospital, she had started getting better and she was able to wish me a happy birthday. it meant so much to me. i guess when she woke up that morning my aunt asked her if she knew what day it was and she said, "well, of course i do! it's Allison's birthday." definitely the best birthday gift of all.
friday i finally got around to mailing her (grand)mother's day gift. it will arrive Wed, the day i will be flying in for her funeral. :( i am kicking myself for not having sent it sooner...oh well. i did get to tell her i loved her very much on the phone, at least.
my dad said she fell asleep on Saturday and just never woke up. he said she was complaining of pain before she fell asleep and then was very peaceful. i was out with friends late Sat night and i suddenly had this overwhelmingly sad feeling come over me. it seemed inexplicable because i had been having a good time and boom there it was. like i just knew.
she was an amazing lady and i will miss her greatly. <3