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tomorrow i have another tournament with jv. this sucks i need to sleep in on a saturday! this week i had a tennis match monday-cabrini-won. wednesday-gross point north-loss. and thursday-dc-won. and then tomorrow. and then regina on monday. and im soooo pissed about monday. im playing with varsity. and there's 2 girls on jv who should probably be on varsity but they aren't because our coach wanted them to experience high school tennis before having to make the commitment to varsity. and plus, they have 3 more years to be on varsity. but anyway. so one of the freshman gets to play 4th singles. and he tells me "they'll have extra players so you'll be playing them" ok what the fuck. im the fucking one who's on varsity and I should be playing that 4th singles spot if he's going to be putting somebody else there. this girl has never even played a varsity match and the first fucking one she plays is 4th singles. i hate it sooo fucking much, i just feel like i get shit on so much. everytime i start feeling fine about the whole varsity/jv thing, something comes back to shoot me in the ass and piss me off all over again. and this is deffinetly one of those times. somebody please do tell me if im just being immature about this whole thing.
the coach is nice, but he just needs to make up his fucking mind about who plays where and not make people feel like such shit all the time. and it's not just me.
when we played dc yesterday, only 1 girl lost, but she was playing 3 singles, and she probably shouldn't have been playing that. so he goes "even though you are the only one that lost, you put out really good effort" like who the fuck says that! you don't actually point out that they were the only one who lost! im sorry, but he can just be such a dip.

i think im done venting.