Aug 11, 2004 20:33
Did it again..
He slipped away so easily. It was never gonna be the same now was it? The little hope I did have, Crashed and burned! So I just stopped. I stopped it all, but I had to say something to see if he was alive still, to know he still existed, to know that I didnt imagine it. That the past some odd years were not a waste. He's still there, still doesnt care. So far away he is now, what can I do? Not a thing nor do I want to. Whats the effort, if he has none? I was abandoned by him and there was no fight, nothing happened. Just went away. Im scared to talk to him, Im scared to see him again but I force myself because of that hope, that friendship was so unbreakable. Everyone knows it was going to end some friendships end thats just the way it goes. Everything breaks but sometimes there are too many pieces to put it back together again.
Im nothing to him once again, I never was, just a shoulder to cry for a while til he got bored with me. Drama Queenish, Yes of course, not a big deal who cares right?! Too bad I do, I shouldnt, of course, but I really do!
I miss him of course, but I know that everything will be just fine without that friendship. Actually Ive been kinda of proud of myself because I dont think about it that much anymore, I moved on. But on days like this..it happens again..just one word could trigger it all.
Just slipped away again..
Im sorry to say...
My friendship, respect, and hope will never fade...Just you...
I love you forever, Ill miss you for too long but one day...
Youll just be that guy that slipped away..