Im not sure..
Hmm..another day at school. It was cool everything is going smoothly for now that is. I like all my classes even physics isnt too bad, I think he was just having an off day yesterday! 1st day of practice woohoo it was fun. I like having cheerleading as a class now, its so much easier then having to stay after school for 2 more hours. Now i get out earlier! woohoo! Im happy about everything thats is happening. Im really excited for this year for the 1000th time haha! oh yeah and Jessica got her schedule changed and shes in my 3rd period WOOHOO!!! Everyone else seems like they dont exist its really odd! This year its all mixed around which isnt bad but I kinda miss Beth and other ppl!
Im been thinking a lot lately...people whom I thought were important really arent is something I realized. Also I was looking back at the past because one of my ex's is in two of my classes and Him and I dont talk just cuz its odd..but we are still nice to each other but yeah its just weird. I realized how much everything does change and for the good...not always bad. I look back and kinda laugh bc things that were such a big deal back then arent anymore. They dont even matter. Another thing I realized was the person {him} that I thought was the most important, really isnt at all.
It doesnt really matter if hes in my life anymore, I mean dont get me wrong I want him to be, I love him to death and I love still being friends with him. I wouldnt wanna ever loose him but I know for a fact that it probably doesnt matter to him that we talk or that Im even in his life. Maybe it does? Idk but its not that big of a deal anymore. He was a life lesson and sometimes you have to let go to see what else lays ahead. I also thought I would be loosing something huge if I lost him, but truthfully it would hurt but life goes on. I guess what Im saying is I always thought persay I couldnt live without him, but the truth is I could and would be just as happy.
I looked at my ex today and we are totally different people now. I use to regret liking him or going out with him bc he hurt me and things happened between us. But now i look back and im glad it happened, and I learned from it and i learned to let go of him, just like I am with Him.
Its funny cuz he has no clue, seriously he doesnt really care either well actually he does but thats the thing he never cared enough to show it. Sometimes I wonder if he would notice if i stopped being the person who always listens the person he talks to when no one else is around. I dont want to be that anymore. Sometimes I just want to say goodbye, and then sometimes I dont.
Well thats good for now...I have to go to church.. woohoo!
*ps I have no clue where all that came from....
Im been thinking a lot lately...people whom I thought were important really arent is something I realized. Also I was looking back at the past because one of my ex's is in two of my classes and Him and I dont talk just cuz its odd..but we are still nice to each other but yeah its just weird. I realized how much everything does change and for the good...not always bad. I look back and kinda laugh bc things that were such a big deal back then arent anymore. They dont even matter. Another thing I realized was the person {him} that I thought was the most important, really isnt at all.
It doesnt really matter if hes in my life anymore, I mean dont get me wrong I want him to be, I love him to death and I love still being friends with him. I wouldnt wanna ever loose him but I know for a fact that it probably doesnt matter to him that we talk or that Im even in his life. Maybe it does? Idk but its not that big of a deal anymore. He was a life lesson and sometimes you have to let go to see what else lays ahead. I also thought I would be loosing something huge if I lost him, but truthfully it would hurt but life goes on. I guess what Im saying is I always thought persay I couldnt live without him, but the truth is I could and would be just as happy.
I looked at my ex today and we are totally different people now. I use to regret liking him or going out with him bc he hurt me and things happened between us. But now i look back and im glad it happened, and I learned from it and i learned to let go of him, just like I am with Him.
Its funny cuz he has no clue, seriously he doesnt really care either well actually he does but thats the thing he never cared enough to show it. Sometimes I wonder if he would notice if i stopped being the person who always listens the person he talks to when no one else is around. I dont want to be that anymore. Sometimes I just want to say goodbye, and then sometimes I dont.
Well thats good for now...I have to go to church.. woohoo!
*ps I have no clue where all that came from....