life goes on, and their aint shit we can do

[xxspookykidsxx]

as a boy grows, he grows into a man, as a man grows he tends to get scared of many things, even though all men try to hide it. well im here now saying that yeah i am scared, scared of this world and the shit that goes on,i would never want to loose someone i really care about just because of some asshole, so i have been very distant to many people, even the person i care about the most, and u guys know who im talking about, and i feel bad not just for her but for every one because thats not me, this is NOT me. i really hate the fact that i feel this way, i want to have fun i want to be comfortable and i just cant be. alot of shit has been going on and i want my stress to go away, and all my worries but i really hate the fact that im like this, i dont know how everyone else can just keep it in, and be normal, i have been holding it in for ever and its killing me inside.
i know i always say i hate the internet i really do and that my last entry would be my last but this is a journal and i dont have a diary to write in soo i got this, i guess its no "my space" but fuck that i hate this one as much but fuck it. well im getting tired and my shoulders hurt. well no pitty and have fun dont be afraid to say hi no matter what i say so take care and dont let me down, peace out u all.