...Just rambles..
I posted this on my myspace blog yesteday, it was just me rambling...so now I'm X-posting it on here.
So yeah. Basically, I've realized very few people actually know anything about me. I'm not a scene girl, nor will I ever be, so don't expect me to cut my hair short and wear the same thing as everyone else just to fit it, that's just not me. I like to do things because I like them, not for anyone else, and I find that a lot of people dislike me for that. I speak my mind all the time, because I'd rather be straight forward with people than beat around the bush, and I wish they would do they same to me. I love to make jokes, no matter how stupid, perverted, or 5 year old-ish they sound, it's fun to laugh and I'll do it as much as I want. I hate it when people take everything seriously, relax we only have one life and we should enjoy it. I don't seem to get along with girls for many reasons, mainly because I just seem to share more intrests with guys, and girls always seems to want drama. Just roll with it yo. I like to use words like "yo", "wicked", "stoked", "rad", etc. I understand that the majority of people don't have the same beliefs as me, and that's ok, just don't try to tear mine down because I live the life that's right for me, and no matter what you say, I'm going to wake up every morning being me and doing what I want to do. And you should do the same. I'm recently getting over wearing only black t-shirts, for as long as I remember that is all that I've worn, and now I'm putting some color into my wardrobe, because I want to. I don't have to dress up to go places, I'm totally down with wearing my basketball shorts and flip flops around anywhere. I wish I could meet a guy that felt the same way for me that I would for him, and he had intentions as good as mine. I'd also want him to make me mixed tapes, and drink coffee with me at 3 am, and dance around like drunk chickens/a retarded kids with sparklers, and not give a fuck how many people loved or hated me. I like to watch lame reality shows, like Laguna Beach and Meet The Barkers and I don't care if you all hate them because I know there's someone out there as addicted to them as I am. I'm pretty much just one of the guys, and I wouldn't want it any other way, because I love all my friend and my family and I would do anything for them. I believe in my dreams, no matter how far fetched they may seem at times, I believe that if I try hard enough I can do whatever I want. I'm not posi all the time, but I do try to be. I'm not perfect, and I'll be the first to point out my flaws to you. I'm way to shy, and I wish that I wasn't. There are so many words left unsaid to so many people in my life, and I don't know if I will ever have the courage to say those things. I always fall for the wrong guy, but I don't believe in regret, and I know that I learn from my mistakes each time, so eventually I'm sure I will find that guy who makes me mixtapes. I have the best friend ever, and I'm really really glad that I have her in my life, she's helped me with a lot and it's going to kill me inside the day that we have to go our seperate way, but I know that it might just have to happen that way. However, she will always hold a place in my heart, and I hope I hold a place in hers. I love to watch movies that I can relate to, and one's that I can't. I'd like to just have a movie marathon with nothing but my favorite movies and my friends there with me. I get entertained very easy, and I like that because it helps with my boredum. I'm also a lot smarter than I let on, but I will admit that I lack common sense every once in a while, but hey who doesn't have their blonde moments? I'm willing to forgive, if you haven't hurt me too bad, but I can't garuntee that I will forget. I've been through a lot in my short life, and I don't think I would change it, because it has all led me to be who I am today. There are things that have happend to me, that I wouldn't wish onto my greatest enemy, but I'm glad that I'm strong enough to overcome obstacles like those. I love to just sit and watch people. And I love to just be around other creative people. I'm always day dreaming and always doodling, but I'm also always aware of what's going on. I don't know where I will be in ten yeard, but I know where I want to be and I know that I will try to get there, and if I'm meant to be there, then I will be. I really dislike people who cheat on their significant others because I think that's one of the worst things next to murder that you can do to someone who really cares about you, seriosuly, if you want to be with someone else, then tell your significant other because it may hurt to say good-bye but it's better than being cheated on. I know that I am a beautiful person on the inside, but I keep a guard up to most people and they never see that. I don't like sketchy situations, yet I think I get a thrill out of them. I love toy stores because I have a 5 year old mentality at some times. Yet, I seem to get along better with older people than myself because I'm also mature. I'm contradicting, yet true. And I recently decided that I'm in love with life.
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kRiSt4
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So yeah. Basically, I've realized very few people actually know anything about me. I'm not a scene girl, nor will I ever be, so don't expect me to cut my hair short and wear the same thing as everyone else just to fit it, that's just not me. I like to do things because I like them, not for anyone else, and I find that a lot of people dislike me for that. I speak my mind all the time, because I'd rather be straight forward with people than beat around the bush, and I wish they would do they same to me. I love to make jokes, no matter how stupid, perverted, or 5 year old-ish they sound, it's fun to laugh and I'll do it as much as I want. I hate it when people take everything seriously, relax we only have one life and we should enjoy it. I don't seem to get along with girls for many reasons, mainly because I just seem to share more intrests with guys, and girls always seems to want drama. Just roll with it yo. I like to use words like "yo", "wicked", "stoked", "rad", etc. I understand that the majority of people don't have the same beliefs as me, and that's ok, just don't try to tear mine down because I live the life that's right for me, and no matter what you say, I'm going to wake up every morning being me and doing what I want to do. And you should do the same. I'm recently getting over wearing only black t-shirts, for as long as I remember that is all that I've worn, and now I'm putting some color into my wardrobe, because I want to. I don't have to dress up to go places, I'm totally down with wearing my basketball shorts and flip flops around anywhere. I wish I could meet a guy that felt the same way for me that I would for him, and he had intentions as good as mine. I'd also want him to make me mixed tapes, and drink coffee with me at 3 am, and dance around like drunk chickens/a retarded kids with sparklers, and not give a fuck how many people loved or hated me. I like to watch lame reality shows, like Laguna Beach and Meet The Barkers and I don't care if you all hate them because I know there's someone out there as addicted to them as I am. I'm pretty much just one of the guys, and I wouldn't want it any other way, because I love all my friend and my family and I would do anything for them. I believe in my dreams, no matter how far fetched they may seem at times, I believe that if I try hard enough I can do whatever I want. I'm not posi all the time, but I do try to be. I'm not perfect, and I'll be the first to point out my flaws to you. I'm way to shy, and I wish that I wasn't. There are so many words left unsaid to so many people in my life, and I don't know if I will ever have the courage to say those things. I always fall for the wrong guy, but I don't believe in regret, and I know that I learn from my mistakes each time, so eventually I'm sure I will find that guy who makes me mixtapes. I have the best friend ever, and I'm really really glad that I have her in my life, she's helped me with a lot and it's going to kill me inside the day that we have to go our seperate way, but I know that it might just have to happen that way. However, she will always hold a place in my heart, and I hope I hold a place in hers. I love to watch movies that I can relate to, and one's that I can't. I'd like to just have a movie marathon with nothing but my favorite movies and my friends there with me. I get entertained very easy, and I like that because it helps with my boredum. I'm also a lot smarter than I let on, but I will admit that I lack common sense every once in a while, but hey who doesn't have their blonde moments? I'm willing to forgive, if you haven't hurt me too bad, but I can't garuntee that I will forget. I've been through a lot in my short life, and I don't think I would change it, because it has all led me to be who I am today. There are things that have happend to me, that I wouldn't wish onto my greatest enemy, but I'm glad that I'm strong enough to overcome obstacles like those. I love to just sit and watch people. And I love to just be around other creative people. I'm always day dreaming and always doodling, but I'm also always aware of what's going on. I don't know where I will be in ten yeard, but I know where I want to be and I know that I will try to get there, and if I'm meant to be there, then I will be. I really dislike people who cheat on their significant others because I think that's one of the worst things next to murder that you can do to someone who really cares about you, seriosuly, if you want to be with someone else, then tell your significant other because it may hurt to say good-bye but it's better than being cheated on. I know that I am a beautiful person on the inside, but I keep a guard up to most people and they never see that. I don't like sketchy situations, yet I think I get a thrill out of them. I love toy stores because I have a 5 year old mentality at some times. Yet, I seem to get along better with older people than myself because I'm also mature. I'm contradicting, yet true. And I recently decided that I'm in love with life.
xxx
kRiSt4
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