Finally, I just don't care about anything but him
Last night was great fun. Dee's friend Alvaro had a small getty that turned into a cockfest so her friend Jason went with us and he took extra care of us. He was such a sweet guy. I hope things get easier for him since we were having deep conversations at Denny's. Before that, me and Dee were just discussing our lives lol and love. I came to the conclusion that someone was trying or is trying, not sure yet, of taking away the love of my life. I don't understand how girls can be stupid. Being my GC self you would think oh the girl is going to get fu***** faded (hit in the face lol), but I'm cool and she doesn't live here anymore. But, that situation made me realize that I don't care what my parents say or what people think I'll be 20 in August and he will be back in August so I wrote him a letter saying, "Babe, I love you and I just want to be with you and never lose you so we have always talked about marriage, but I want to be with you already, so I'm ready when you are. If I could marry you now, I would, but obviously your seargeant won't lol." That's it. Dee made me realize that you can lose the love of your life easily if you don't come to your senses. And, yea I love him alot and maybe I'm crazy because I'm so young and bla bla bla, but I'm almost done with school. He will be gone to some countries and when I'm done with school I'll have a job anywhere I want. Maybe Spain. He can get transferred to Spain. There journalists are awesome. Look at the Princess of Spain Leticia. Awesome journalist. Youguys may think that I'm crazy, but I'm not. I'm not the type of girl that needs to have crazy fun before I get married because I have already. Babe, even tells me to go out alot lol. So, he's the greatest guy in the world and he spoke to me before he left saying that he wanted to marry me already because he knew that he would be able to support us so that's it. The letter is sent and all I need is a response. I have a group project to do now. Byez.