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[xxslowxmurderx]

long time no write...so im just going to blab on about stuff...well this has been the longest boringest stupidest week of my entire life....but yet its all good...cuz im spendin time with the boys and spendin time with the family i guess...but the bad thing is that damn hurricane and we are staying in the middle of it...but oh well shit happens right....well life has been ok since my last entry....not to much has gone on....still single no girl...ive talked to deanna and desi it was awsome to catch up with them again...we shud do it again....there is this girl that i do like but no one knows who it is...becuz i havent told anyone and i dont plan to...unless your names r j unit, lee, blake, or morgan....there the only ones that have known....this girl is amazing but i havent told anything becuz whats the use i like our relationship as it is...i guess its good being close friends but yet i wish we had more...i guess u can say all this closeness between me and her has brought me to like her alot. we talk on the phone online we hang sometimes...but still i have not told her...and i dk if i want to....becuz idk if it is worth it....why try to ruin something good that we have as friends...but what if she has the same feelings how will i ever know...its just something ill have to live with i dont just want to go out and be like oh this is how i feel will u go out with me...there is more to that...theres a longer story than that....i want her so bad... but i dont try becuz i dont believe she will be interested in me in that kind of way...so its better just to stay as we are like ive said...well i think im done blabbin on...i told u i was going to blab on about stuff but its all good..
well im done....
jon