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school is out. i dont really feel any different. well just a bit. maybe im paranoid but it seems to me that a lot of my friends don't really want to hang out anymore. maybe im no fun. maybe they've found better friends. maybe im trying to hard. i just cant stop thinking that its true.
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i really messed up last night. i got in a fight with some one i love dearly and i think that it wont be able to be fixed. i just hope that they are more understanding of me and what i think. tonight im going to church with crystal and lisa. maybe i can find some help there. things are supposed to get better thats what i hope but im not sure that they will.
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jeff is having a "party" tonight. i wasn't really invited by him because he says i dont really like his friends. some are ok but he doesnt really like my friends and i would still invite him over. maybe im just trying to hard again. he said i could stop by if i wanted. i probalay will.
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so there is a battle of the bands at the post on saturday. i think jeff wants to go. i was talking to paul and he said he kinda wanted to go. i know it may sound stupid but i dont like taking people that have really early curfews because then i have to take them home and miss part of the show. maybe im being too selfish.... dont think i spelt that right but oh well.
im gonna go listen to some music maybe that will make me feel better. most likely not.
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i really messed up last night. i got in a fight with some one i love dearly and i think that it wont be able to be fixed. i just hope that they are more understanding of me and what i think. tonight im going to church with crystal and lisa. maybe i can find some help there. things are supposed to get better thats what i hope but im not sure that they will.
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jeff is having a "party" tonight. i wasn't really invited by him because he says i dont really like his friends. some are ok but he doesnt really like my friends and i would still invite him over. maybe im just trying to hard again. he said i could stop by if i wanted. i probalay will.
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so there is a battle of the bands at the post on saturday. i think jeff wants to go. i was talking to paul and he said he kinda wanted to go. i know it may sound stupid but i dont like taking people that have really early curfews because then i have to take them home and miss part of the show. maybe im being too selfish.... dont think i spelt that right but oh well.
im gonna go listen to some music maybe that will make me feel better. most likely not.