You and me and a bottle of wine
You know something? This summer has been really good so far.
I mean there are areas of my life that could be better of course, but i've never been someone who liked things to be perfect all the time.
If things ever DO get close to perfection in my life, I get that 'in a rut' feeling.. i need to have something to think about or i go insane.
That probably doesn't make sense, but it's the best i can explain it I guess.
I've felt kinda laid back lately. I think of it as kinda the calm before the storm.. because soon (barely more then a month, ugh) i'll be back in school, and this very well could be the end of my scholastic life. My schedule will probably be shitty and hectic.. but if i take all the classes i need, i'll graduate next May.... and then who knows?
I've been asked this question many times: "So Steve, what are you gonna do with a history major? Be a teacher?"
No. The answer? I have NO clue.... absolutely no clue what i want to do with my life. The extent of what i'm sure of after May of 2006 is as follows-
- I want move out.
- I need a job that will make me enough money with which to do so.
Maybe history major with a minor in tourism wasn't such a great idea. I only did it (went to college, that is) to make my mom proud basically... and with the hopes that SOMEWHERE along the line in my college life i'd find something i was passionate about.. something i could do for the rest of my life and be happy. That didn't happen, so unless something drastic happens over the next few months, i'll be departing from CCSU with a degree, and NO direction.
Sometimes i envy those who knew what they wanted to do with thier life from a young age. Those people who decided when they were little they wanted to be a cop.. a docter.. a teacher.. a firefighter.. a circus acrobat.. a bowling show disinfector... whatever thier particular passion happened to be, they at least had a GOAL to strive for.
But for now, i'm content. I'll worry about that when i need to. For now i just wanna concentrate on making a great summer even better.
I mean there are areas of my life that could be better of course, but i've never been someone who liked things to be perfect all the time.
If things ever DO get close to perfection in my life, I get that 'in a rut' feeling.. i need to have something to think about or i go insane.
That probably doesn't make sense, but it's the best i can explain it I guess.
I've felt kinda laid back lately. I think of it as kinda the calm before the storm.. because soon (barely more then a month, ugh) i'll be back in school, and this very well could be the end of my scholastic life. My schedule will probably be shitty and hectic.. but if i take all the classes i need, i'll graduate next May.... and then who knows?
I've been asked this question many times: "So Steve, what are you gonna do with a history major? Be a teacher?"
No. The answer? I have NO clue.... absolutely no clue what i want to do with my life. The extent of what i'm sure of after May of 2006 is as follows-
- I want move out.
- I need a job that will make me enough money with which to do so.
Maybe history major with a minor in tourism wasn't such a great idea. I only did it (went to college, that is) to make my mom proud basically... and with the hopes that SOMEWHERE along the line in my college life i'd find something i was passionate about.. something i could do for the rest of my life and be happy. That didn't happen, so unless something drastic happens over the next few months, i'll be departing from CCSU with a degree, and NO direction.
Sometimes i envy those who knew what they wanted to do with thier life from a young age. Those people who decided when they were little they wanted to be a cop.. a docter.. a teacher.. a firefighter.. a circus acrobat.. a bowling show disinfector... whatever thier particular passion happened to be, they at least had a GOAL to strive for.
But for now, i'm content. I'll worry about that when i need to. For now i just wanna concentrate on making a great summer even better.