that i was planning uh.. i mean wishing uh.. how embarassed id be if you knew what i was thinking uh
You know, the faint is probably the only band in the world that makes me WANT to dance. As my friends know, I am NOT a big fan of dancing.. im awkward and goofy and self conscious... but the faint is different. If there is anyone who can listen to a few faint songs without dancing, i have yet to meet them.. because it is physically impossible.
k maybe not!
I wish i believed in god sometimes. I wish that when people died i could tell myself and others- "He's in heaven with god now." but i can't.. Because i don't believe it exists.
Today I got the news that my second cousin Bruce died. He was in his mid 40's.. and he had cancer. It had been pretty bad for a while, but the family still had hope, and it fucking sucks for lack of a better adjective. He has 2 kids (17 and 15 i believe) and from what i hear the mom is a huge bitch who hasnt really been around, so he raised them by himself.. and now he's gone.
It sucks that until someone passes away, someone you weren't particularly close to or who wasn't part of your everyday life, you don't really think about them much. I haven't seen Bruce in a long time but i have this really clear memory of a day I spent with him when i was like 14. It's strange because i don't really have many vivid memories from my childhood/early adolescence...
like you know those days you can just almost replay in your head? It's one of those days. Because it was just such a good day. I remember my brother and i didnt realyl want to go because we didnt really know Bruce or his kids, but my uncle took us anyways. We all went on Bruce's boat on Coventry lake and it was just such a great great day. Like some of the most fun i can remember having in my life. We tubed, we swam, we got along great with his kids and had a blast. Then we went to a carnival which was going on near the lake and me and matt got stinkbombs there (which would get us in trouble later).
Alot of people in my extended family are pretty fucked up in the head and a couple just aren't very good people.. but Bruce was different.. he was such a nice guy and a great father, and even though the whole family has kinda been expecting this, it was still shitty to hear that this morning.
If there was a heaven, i certainly think he'd be there, and at least he doesn't have to suffer anymore.
k maybe not!
I wish i believed in god sometimes. I wish that when people died i could tell myself and others- "He's in heaven with god now." but i can't.. Because i don't believe it exists.
Today I got the news that my second cousin Bruce died. He was in his mid 40's.. and he had cancer. It had been pretty bad for a while, but the family still had hope, and it fucking sucks for lack of a better adjective. He has 2 kids (17 and 15 i believe) and from what i hear the mom is a huge bitch who hasnt really been around, so he raised them by himself.. and now he's gone.
It sucks that until someone passes away, someone you weren't particularly close to or who wasn't part of your everyday life, you don't really think about them much. I haven't seen Bruce in a long time but i have this really clear memory of a day I spent with him when i was like 14. It's strange because i don't really have many vivid memories from my childhood/early adolescence...
like you know those days you can just almost replay in your head? It's one of those days. Because it was just such a good day. I remember my brother and i didnt realyl want to go because we didnt really know Bruce or his kids, but my uncle took us anyways. We all went on Bruce's boat on Coventry lake and it was just such a great great day. Like some of the most fun i can remember having in my life. We tubed, we swam, we got along great with his kids and had a blast. Then we went to a carnival which was going on near the lake and me and matt got stinkbombs there (which would get us in trouble later).
Alot of people in my extended family are pretty fucked up in the head and a couple just aren't very good people.. but Bruce was different.. he was such a nice guy and a great father, and even though the whole family has kinda been expecting this, it was still shitty to hear that this morning.
If there was a heaven, i certainly think he'd be there, and at least he doesn't have to suffer anymore.