About My Grnadmother And About My Boring A$$ Day...
ok it's obvious that really no one really reads my journal n~e more and so i guess yea no one has no memories of me =(. so right now im just really talking to myself but...in my journal of what i think. so yea here it goes...i stayed home all day 2 day completely bored. i think im getting fatter cuz when im bored that's when i usually eat and today i ate like a lot! and i just finished watching "stuck on you" with my dad. haha that movie was cute/funny. well i heard the news about my grandmother =(. she has had cancer for like 2 1/2 months now. and she can't walk like at all and shes weak and stuff. and so 2 morrow will be my last time i will ever see my grandmother again =(.yea she is moving to Georgia cuz shes dieing and she wants to see the family for like one last time. you get what i mean? wait! why the hell am i asking questions to myself. ahh whatever so n~e ways and so just now my mom walked in and told me that my nana was in the hospital. and that she is going to stay there over night. i was almost about to punch another whole in my door to get all my anger out. cuz that's what i usually do to get my anger out. just to hit something. i was like crying my eyes out today after when i talked to nicole online. i hate crying infront of people. but i think im a little ok now. im feeling low and i think im going to be like this all week and weekend. i don't know maybe someone will try and cheer me up or something. and right this second as i type, im feeling guilty. because i knew all along that my grandmother had cancer and i really never visited her. also, i havn't even spent time with her for like a whole f**king year!! im so f**king pissed about that!! and now im seeing blurry as i type now. ahh it's hard for me to type lol. ::talking to myself out loud:: haha im crackin up ok, get a grip hannah! i just need someone here by my side to cheer me up or something. well i think im gonna go play some xbox now so that i can try and get my mind off my grandmother so that i really won't cry. but i dont know. whatever.=(
-hannah