And I wake up
to find that it was just a dream the romance I was living for was all in my head .. . The love of my life was a combination of dreams and whispers from the grave and now I find my life meaningless .. you remember him . . standing by my side the laughter hard to bare. . . but he was just a figment. . .imaginations crulest trick. . .the boy I fell for was my mind the illution I put up to say he was mine. . .Hazel eyes . . .dark hair . . I made it all up .. for nine months I dreamed .. . I dreamed he was the one we held hands and joked .. we were always together .. in my mind. But now i have awaken to find I am alone that the dream was just my mind making a sick joke . .this life could never be mine . .. no . .there will never be love. .there's no way . .my heart to bruised and battered to ever let that happen .. . too much pain in my eyes to ever be the same. .I say I'm moving on .. .but inside I always die as his name is brought up .. I scream and I cry .. .you see my lip is twitching. . .not in anger but in pain. . I cant hold it in . . I think i've gone insane .. he always kept me from the blade .. and let me live some more but now that my illutions gone. . .I let the blood pore. . more wounds for this battered soul .. because there is nothing left. . . . my mind killed me
he stands over me the angel of death smiling sweetly taking my breath and he stands over me the angel of filth sickness in his mind as he takes my will I will let him rule me because I am gone nothing left in my heart no last love song all I do in my life is scream in the pain as I hold my sweet knife I watch crimson rain I will give in to temptation because I've nothing left no place to call home no soul to take a breath.I will let him win killing my heart with it unbeating he'll tear me apart
Burning. . . I feel no pain the warmth inside it has no name. .the fact its caused by fear is true but what can be done . . I fear only you.
You are my heartbreak and love and life . . .but you just gutted me on your floor watching my life pore out you scream for more . . . you stand there watching me die and for the first time I let myself cry I cry for the pain and the hurt and the fear I cry for the fact you wont hold me dear You stab me and kick me and watch my heart fall but that is not all you do . .of course thats not all... you make me feel worthless like I've nothing to be so a corpse looks to you . .but can you see. You kill me . . and my mind with you i could never be fine .. .but all I want right now is to be in your arms safe from almost anything . .. but not your harms
And I scream out to him but he could never see from the distance he's at it could never be me
Disgarded
wasted
haunted
tired
sorrow creeps in again
heartbroken
scared
drained
cold
hatred stirs in my head
and she looks to the world one last time
she seen him cry
and watched him die
and now all she wants is to be free of his spell
she wants to be free she wants to let go
but she always goes crawling back to him
as she remembers the pain
she slits her wrists like they said
and she laughs at the fact he'll hate himself
because he did love her once
but now he's in hell
remember red flashing in the dark the pain of the blade the first sering mark
remember eyes surching for clues heartbreak over taking what you had to do
one wont see me one forgot one is far away and I rot
depression is one of my best friends . . i think I'll take him home tonight
Love,
d3zi the nazi
die all you jewish fuckers!
he stands over me the angel of death smiling sweetly taking my breath and he stands over me the angel of filth sickness in his mind as he takes my will I will let him rule me because I am gone nothing left in my heart no last love song all I do in my life is scream in the pain as I hold my sweet knife I watch crimson rain I will give in to temptation because I've nothing left no place to call home no soul to take a breath.I will let him win killing my heart with it unbeating he'll tear me apart
Burning. . . I feel no pain the warmth inside it has no name. .the fact its caused by fear is true but what can be done . . I fear only you.
You are my heartbreak and love and life . . .but you just gutted me on your floor watching my life pore out you scream for more . . . you stand there watching me die and for the first time I let myself cry I cry for the pain and the hurt and the fear I cry for the fact you wont hold me dear You stab me and kick me and watch my heart fall but that is not all you do . .of course thats not all... you make me feel worthless like I've nothing to be so a corpse looks to you . .but can you see. You kill me . . and my mind with you i could never be fine .. .but all I want right now is to be in your arms safe from almost anything . .. but not your harms
And I scream out to him but he could never see from the distance he's at it could never be me
Disgarded
wasted
haunted
tired
sorrow creeps in again
heartbroken
scared
drained
cold
hatred stirs in my head
and she looks to the world one last time
she seen him cry
and watched him die
and now all she wants is to be free of his spell
she wants to be free she wants to let go
but she always goes crawling back to him
as she remembers the pain
she slits her wrists like they said
and she laughs at the fact he'll hate himself
because he did love her once
but now he's in hell
remember red flashing in the dark the pain of the blade the first sering mark
remember eyes surching for clues heartbreak over taking what you had to do
one wont see me one forgot one is far away and I rot
depression is one of my best friends . . i think I'll take him home tonight
Love,
d3zi the nazi
die all you jewish fuckers!