Thats it, I quit...
I've come to a final decision, I'm quitting track..Good. Finally!! I can't fucking stand it! I'm so sick of it and everybody giving me their shit, and for the people that give me crap in the future because I quit well then shove it up your ass and do something with your life other than worrying about MY life and what I do. I mean like seriously, I get off the track and from doing the best I can and I get yelled at, "6:26, Meg, thats horrible, you did horrible, why didn't you stay up with Liz and Molly?! You could've done good if you stayed with them!" And I'm sick of going through the same process everyday mello yelling at me, then tracey, then hearing "your not trying your hardest your slacking, you suck, come to practice at 8 sharp, your such a slacker," etc, and all that crap I don't want to hear.. I mean I probably wouldn't mind track if I actually enjoyed running, but I don't. Or maybe I wouldn't mind it if I did something that I enjoyed like I said, I wanted to try hurdles, but nope I can't do that either.."No, you can't. You are a state-qualifying miler, you cannot become a hurdler you'd suck at it you don't have it together to be a hurdler.Your a miler and thats that.." I mean seriously thanks for giving me a fucking chance at doing something. I mean seriously, can't I do something that I WANT to do ... Maybe I wouldn't give them shit and they wouldn't have to give me these stupid little 'talks' that they always know just how to piss me off even more and get me upset. Like getting told I should go suicidal by my own fucking coach, oh, well thats nice to know. And now they think I have to go see a fucking physciatrist. Grreeaaatt. If they are expecting me to rant on my problems to a person I barely know, and who can tell my parents crap, I'm not going to do it, so they're not going to find any information about me. Nor is anyone else. Urrgghhh they piss me off...and they wonder why I hate it.... Cause they're dicks.And if I'm still there in January its only because I don't want to waste $100. So if after that don't plan on seeing me running with the team for a while.
Now I have to go face Mello and Tracey either this week or next week, depending if I go to practice, for not going to practice.. Great. Time to get told to go suicidal again.
-Bye