I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not.
Right now, people are popping fireworks, or watching TV or doing nothing at all. And in all this, they are thinking about 2004. What they did, what they saw, what they found.
I'm talking to my friend, Camille. And I started spitting out these things I've never said before. Things like --
"You're the nicest to people and they step all over you. i phrase it as "they take advantage of the fact that I care. they'll do something bad, knowing I will forgive them. they say this, knowing it'll hurt..." i wish there was less people like that in the world."
"You'll find someone who appreciates you and will ask for nothing, because you are everything and anything more would be unnecessary."
"That's what sucks about the future. you'll see, feel, hear, touch and find things you dont wanna find.. that's how we lose things before we appreciate them. it's a vicious cycle."
And right now, I'm hoping and praying that I won't look back at this entry, sometime in 2005, and really realize I was right, by experience. I've been through that enough. Anything more will make me break, I swear.
This is my last entry of 2004. Hoping the best of 2005!!
See you in 2005,
-Romi.