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[xxshammyxx]

You Left me in the dark
left me waiting for an answer
left me quivering in the bitter laughter
you took all I had
made it into yours,
smiled at me, took me in
shoved me back again
and you don’t even think
that we can last to the end.

You left me thinking, that
you don’t take it seriously
that you are mindlessly
thinking that I am nothing
fuck you, I can be something
more then you can ever be
I’ll kill you, in my mind
your way back there
your fucking with me
you will never make me
inside you fucking left me
one the outside, all your
doing is having fun,
trying so hard to pretend
making all the pain last,
forcing me to remember
how i'm living in the past.

Twist me, inside the guilt
pressure me to thinking it’s my fault
Manipulative and amused
sharpened and excused
relieved and diseased
disappointed and glowing
you left me, not showing
that you’re near
that inside, you actually mind
that I am falling way behind…

I have no time to scream
I have no time to bleed
I’m getting ready
I’m showing that I’m here
even tho you left me
I’m not ready to achieve
in everything, that forced
you to leave… to deceive
me in everything, you caused
me to be, nothing but a broken
un wanted dream.