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update time...
pop is really sick. the doctors said he had a few weeks left...and that was almost two weeks ago. went to see him yesterday....not good. heartbreaking really.
i'm trying to decide which is/was "better" (better being a relative term)....watching my grammy slowly die, helping to take care of her...but seeing that process. god, it was hard. and i don't ever want to go through that again. but i've found it's equally difficult, if not more so, to be a good distance away and only see what's going on every few weeks. the stark reality every time you see him for a few hours...i think i almost prefer the experience with grammy. at least i got to see that process play out, i had ample time to say goodbye and i knew when it was coming (trust me...christmas day...we knew it was just a matter of hours. you could just tell by looking at her). but him...i mean, he could get an infection and be gone pretty quickly. or it could be a week, two weeks, a month...and i'm not there so see him, to talk to him, to see him for myself. it's hard to explain. i....i'm just at a loss.
but on to more positive notes (a lot of which will be put in a friends-only entry)...
ken got me the rise print by kurt...framed. seriously, outside of duffy, possibly the best gift ever. just the random surprise...i was shocked. shocked, i say! and speechless, which im sure he no doubt enjoyed. =)
floridain 13 days. if, of course, pop doesn't pass away. in which case, we'll need a substitute laura to go with ken and his mom and sis to florida. heh.
more in a friends only...
love.
la.
pop is really sick. the doctors said he had a few weeks left...and that was almost two weeks ago. went to see him yesterday....not good. heartbreaking really.
i'm trying to decide which is/was "better" (better being a relative term)....watching my grammy slowly die, helping to take care of her...but seeing that process. god, it was hard. and i don't ever want to go through that again. but i've found it's equally difficult, if not more so, to be a good distance away and only see what's going on every few weeks. the stark reality every time you see him for a few hours...i think i almost prefer the experience with grammy. at least i got to see that process play out, i had ample time to say goodbye and i knew when it was coming (trust me...christmas day...we knew it was just a matter of hours. you could just tell by looking at her). but him...i mean, he could get an infection and be gone pretty quickly. or it could be a week, two weeks, a month...and i'm not there so see him, to talk to him, to see him for myself. it's hard to explain. i....i'm just at a loss.
but on to more positive notes (a lot of which will be put in a friends-only entry)...
ken got me the rise print by kurt...framed. seriously, outside of duffy, possibly the best gift ever. just the random surprise...i was shocked. shocked, i say! and speechless, which im sure he no doubt enjoyed. =)
floridain 13 days. if, of course, pop doesn't pass away. in which case, we'll need a substitute laura to go with ken and his mom and sis to florida. heh.
more in a friends only...
love.
la.