Life weird's me out...
So, last Saturday I was workin and this gorgeous guy who has been a regular at my work for over a year comes in. I had mentioned to Jay (my co-worker) that I thought he looked familiar in some way and that I thought I knew him from somewhere but I had no clue where, so I did not want Jay to say anything. Jay told him and he said I looked familiar too, and I got this crazy idea of how I knew him. I asked him if he ever lived in Detroit and it turns out he did when he was little, on the same street that I did. It was mine and my brother's childhood buddy from forever ago! So we were both psyched n exchanged numbers and I was supposed to give him a call back Saturday night but never ended up doing it cuz I suck. I ended up going over Kevin's house and to the wrong party, long story, maybe we will get to that. Anyways, then Monday night (halloween), Renee, Angelo, Kevin, and I went downtown for a party and on the way there, Kevin asked if I was at his house at the same time his friend Tony was. Turns out I was not, but the way he described him sounded so familiar, so we checked Tony's number in both of our phones and sure enough they matched; it was my childhood friend. I guess he left Kevin's house like 5 minutes before I got there. Weird, yet awesome!
Then the other night I was drivin home and was spacing out for some reason. I started to think about what would happen if a deer jumped in front of my car and how fucked up that would be, I was going like 75-80 down 94. About 2 minutes later, I almost got in a huge accident because a dead deer was laying in my lane and I did not have enough time to slow down and had to swerve into the lane next to me. It was nuts.
My total at speedy-Q came to 6.66. Fun stuff
Moose came home this weekend and we had a slumber party :D. It was really good to see him cuz he is a good friend and I <3 him, but it made me so happy to see a familiar face. For the first time in a while I felt kind of normal. I have been feeling weird lately, I think because so much is changing. I do not see or talk to a lot of people I used to and I am hanging out with completely different/random people. I guess it is a good thing, but at the same time it kinda sucks because I do not really have anyone here that I am close to or trust. I feel like a completely different person. I miss my friends that went away, and I fear what it is going to be like when they come home because I want things to be the same and do not know if they are going to be because everyone has taken such different paths. Sar is so motivated in school which is awesoem tho, Amanda does not talk to me much, dun ever talk to lindz nemore, miss lauren n chanele like hell. Does anyone know what I mean tho?
It is funny how much you learn about yourself and how much you change when you are alone. Only probelm with the whole situation is that I have turned cold to people that try to get close, it is good to be hard, but not to be cold. I am definitely at the cold stage. Like I want ot open up to people but I cannot. When people touch me, I literally freeze. I never ever was like that. Everything I loved about people now freaks me out. You probably have no freakin clue what I am saying so I am sorry. I think I may be ADD or something, I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin constantly. Like nothing is moving fast enough, or like I cannot get enough of life. I keep spazzing out, I'm never calm n cannot sleep. Do not take this as a bad thing cuz I am perfectly fine, but I just always have this feelig. I dunno what is going on. I need to calm the fuck down but cannot seem to do so.
I want to see Jarhead...really bad. Who's comin?!?!
Bedtime, hope everythings good for everyone. Love, peace, and chicken grease :)
I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes
Maybe it all boils down to sexual frustration. Most likely, haha. Sexxxxx
Then the other night I was drivin home and was spacing out for some reason. I started to think about what would happen if a deer jumped in front of my car and how fucked up that would be, I was going like 75-80 down 94. About 2 minutes later, I almost got in a huge accident because a dead deer was laying in my lane and I did not have enough time to slow down and had to swerve into the lane next to me. It was nuts.
My total at speedy-Q came to 6.66. Fun stuff
Moose came home this weekend and we had a slumber party :D. It was really good to see him cuz he is a good friend and I <3 him, but it made me so happy to see a familiar face. For the first time in a while I felt kind of normal. I have been feeling weird lately, I think because so much is changing. I do not see or talk to a lot of people I used to and I am hanging out with completely different/random people. I guess it is a good thing, but at the same time it kinda sucks because I do not really have anyone here that I am close to or trust. I feel like a completely different person. I miss my friends that went away, and I fear what it is going to be like when they come home because I want things to be the same and do not know if they are going to be because everyone has taken such different paths. Sar is so motivated in school which is awesoem tho, Amanda does not talk to me much, dun ever talk to lindz nemore, miss lauren n chanele like hell. Does anyone know what I mean tho?
It is funny how much you learn about yourself and how much you change when you are alone. Only probelm with the whole situation is that I have turned cold to people that try to get close, it is good to be hard, but not to be cold. I am definitely at the cold stage. Like I want ot open up to people but I cannot. When people touch me, I literally freeze. I never ever was like that. Everything I loved about people now freaks me out. You probably have no freakin clue what I am saying so I am sorry. I think I may be ADD or something, I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin constantly. Like nothing is moving fast enough, or like I cannot get enough of life. I keep spazzing out, I'm never calm n cannot sleep. Do not take this as a bad thing cuz I am perfectly fine, but I just always have this feelig. I dunno what is going on. I need to calm the fuck down but cannot seem to do so.
I want to see Jarhead...really bad. Who's comin?!?!
Bedtime, hope everythings good for everyone. Love, peace, and chicken grease :)
I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes
Maybe it all boils down to sexual frustration. Most likely, haha. Sexxxxx