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"love" is overrated.
i hate to see him with her. it hurts. why do they both have to be... intelligent...talented....athletic....nice..cute... in "love." i hate being the person that likes the guy that has the girl and will always have her. i hate liking someone that i knew i could never have. i put myself up for destruction and pain. why do i do this to myself? i think i really want pain sometimes. to say i have suffered.
but, no one really suffers... right? its all in their mind... or is it?
why.
i have a lot of things to figure out. i have a lot of things i need to ignore to grow up and not be some fjdhsfkd-phobic person.
i want to be a serious person.