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today was one of the worst days here by far... i woke up in the morning vomiting all over myself, roomate and couch. i felt so sick... but anyway... i took a shower cleaned up after my self and layed back into bed in agony...then a big giant thunder storm came... and i couldnt do anyhting more but jsut lay in bed feeling sick and sicker and getting more depressed... after that i ended upccalling my mom,,, just to hear her voice.. and to have hjer amke me feel better but of course she does the opposite and makes me feel so terrible.. i couldnt stop crying... im even crying now...
i think the reson im crying is becase all i wanted was some emotional support from her .. you know... like i miss her so much and i miss my bed and i miss my room and my privacy and all that but all she did was turn around and make me feel like shit... after that i asked my roommate to by me some fucking ibuprofen at 6 o clock ... and he ignored me so i jsut sat around moping and jurting and crying ... can you believe its fucking 2 in the morming and i jsut got ibuprofen from some random man in the street (who ends up being a social worker ) and coming back home to drink it here...
its jsut so hard being here alone... i hate not having someone to hug to tell me its going to be ok... i hate not having a car or the money to make my own plans and do my own thing when taggin along sucks.... i hate not having a big shower ... everything is jsut so hard right now... so im gonna go cry myself to sleep and hopefully everything will be better by morning,,,,
i think the reson im crying is becase all i wanted was some emotional support from her .. you know... like i miss her so much and i miss my bed and i miss my room and my privacy and all that but all she did was turn around and make me feel like shit... after that i asked my roommate to by me some fucking ibuprofen at 6 o clock ... and he ignored me so i jsut sat around moping and jurting and crying ... can you believe its fucking 2 in the morming and i jsut got ibuprofen from some random man in the street (who ends up being a social worker ) and coming back home to drink it here...
its jsut so hard being here alone... i hate not having someone to hug to tell me its going to be ok... i hate not having a car or the money to make my own plans and do my own thing when taggin along sucks.... i hate not having a big shower ... everything is jsut so hard right now... so im gonna go cry myself to sleep and hopefully everything will be better by morning,,,,