heellloo
im so bored rite now. i have nothing to do. i've forgotten all of the things i usually do on the internet. or what i used to do like 7 months ago. thats a really long time ago huh? a lot has changed since 7 months ago. A LOT. its sad. i have changed, and some of the people i love so much have changed. namely one. i have changed for the worse and i know it. and he has changed so much sometimes im not sure who he is anymore. i find out something new about him everyday that makes me sick and sad and depressed and mad..all at once. it seems lately especially. its not like i have to deal with it either. i dont. and i wouldnt owe him an explaination. i could just quit talking to him altogether. maybe after 4 more surprises i will. ha..everyone knows prolly not. but maybe the more unlikeable he gets...the more i'll hate him...the less i'll love him? most of the time, idont even know y i do. and as for myself...i've almost become someone i dotn recognize either. its really stupid. i am. i think im even getting uglier and no im not being a freakkkk i really do think so. i think ive ruined myself. damaged myself for good. and he helped me.