random emo thoughts
I have realized many things as of late.
1.) I am sick of being lonely.
Especially when I feel like there's an option to change that.
2.) I want to kiss you.
At the end of the day, it's still on my mind.
3.) I am not extraordinary or special, like I used to believe in high school.
I'm really average.
Especially when I look at some of the people I know who are far from average.
4.) Why do I continue to invest so much of my time and energy into relationships that are not at all reciprocal?
And why do I invest so much of myself in relationships that will never be what I want them to be?
And I don't mean this strictly in the sense of friendships becoming something more.
I have many friendships that I wish would be different in some way and never will be.
Besides these realizations, I've not been doing much.
I ordered two books from amazon the other day.
I can't wait to get them.
I also declared a double major last week and registered for classes.
My schedule is MWF 10-10:50 SOC390: Logic of Sociological Inquiry, 11-11:50 MAT232: Principles of Statistical Inference, W 4-6:30 SOC337: Sociology of Mental Illness, TTh 11-12:15 SOC301: Microsociology, 12:30-1:45 SOC302: Macrosociology, and 2-3:15 SPA305: Applied Spanish. Yeah, I'm taking 6 classes, so expect me dead within the first month of next semester.
And in case you couldn't tell, my double major is in Sociology and Spanish.
Pride Week is this week, too.
Danny from Real World: New Orleans was here on Monday. Pretty disappointing.
Last night we got to view Kinsey. It was amazing. And Peter Sarsgaard provided some delightful full-frontal nudity. And Laura Linney is a goddess.
Friday night we're having a date auction, in which I will (hopefully, if someone buys me) be auctioned off.
And Saturday is the drag show/dance. I'm doing a GNR song and a Meatloaf number.
Yeah.
My life is boring overall.
I have so much to do before this semester ends and I'm so stressed.
But I find myself thinking more about those 4 realizations than any of my homework.
And now I'm going to bed.
1.) I am sick of being lonely.
Especially when I feel like there's an option to change that.
2.) I want to kiss you.
At the end of the day, it's still on my mind.
3.) I am not extraordinary or special, like I used to believe in high school.
I'm really average.
Especially when I look at some of the people I know who are far from average.
4.) Why do I continue to invest so much of my time and energy into relationships that are not at all reciprocal?
And why do I invest so much of myself in relationships that will never be what I want them to be?
And I don't mean this strictly in the sense of friendships becoming something more.
I have many friendships that I wish would be different in some way and never will be.
Besides these realizations, I've not been doing much.
I ordered two books from amazon the other day.
I can't wait to get them.
I also declared a double major last week and registered for classes.
My schedule is MWF 10-10:50 SOC390: Logic of Sociological Inquiry, 11-11:50 MAT232: Principles of Statistical Inference, W 4-6:30 SOC337: Sociology of Mental Illness, TTh 11-12:15 SOC301: Microsociology, 12:30-1:45 SOC302: Macrosociology, and 2-3:15 SPA305: Applied Spanish. Yeah, I'm taking 6 classes, so expect me dead within the first month of next semester.
And in case you couldn't tell, my double major is in Sociology and Spanish.
Pride Week is this week, too.
Danny from Real World: New Orleans was here on Monday. Pretty disappointing.
Last night we got to view Kinsey. It was amazing. And Peter Sarsgaard provided some delightful full-frontal nudity. And Laura Linney is a goddess.
Friday night we're having a date auction, in which I will (hopefully, if someone buys me) be auctioned off.
And Saturday is the drag show/dance. I'm doing a GNR song and a Meatloaf number.
Yeah.
My life is boring overall.
I have so much to do before this semester ends and I'm so stressed.
But I find myself thinking more about those 4 realizations than any of my homework.
And now I'm going to bed.