me in a little box that only opens from the outside

[xxsecondxegoxx]

im stuck. i cant get out from the inside. what have i gotten myself into. love, friendship, work, im stuck. my own opinions dont matter to me anymore. everything i say is contradicted by everyone else. nothing i do matters to anyone. no one cares that i care for them. no one cares if i love them. i wish someone could see how i feel...and understand it. but thats impossible. everyone is supposidly to "fucked up" in the head to understand such simple things as love, and heart-felt emotions. i give up. i shouldve gave up a while ago...but my heart wouldnt let me. my feelings towards other people are so simple to uncover and understand...but its the trouble i go thru to show someone that belates me. i cant take it. i wish someone could rescue me...open this god damn box im stuck in...and show me that they care...show me that they actually know i exist...show me they care for me...contradictions, belated feelings, lies, truths, loaths and grudges...what is my world coming too? i wish i new...i wish i could be saved...i wish it could end...dissapear...i wish i could dissapear...start over a new life...i wish..i wish...thats all i can do...just wish...like that helps..my wishes never come tru...only my nightmares. everything ive worked so hard for to get doesnt matter anymore...nothing does...im not depressed...im just lost...stuck...wanting to get out.

as the sun sets tonite...i will hold you with all that i have...forever

jonnixboi