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[xxsadxbutxtruxx]

so this is my final chapter in life?

this is how it ends??

no one left to turn to,cuz i fucked them all over...

no love of my life,becuase i dont respect her thoughts...

and here i sit....

tareing apart this razor..

trying so desperity to get to the blade...

knucles allready drenched in blood....

and you keep tryin to talkto me...

but i keep ignoring you....

im sorry...

i look in the mirror,and i dont recognize myslef anymore...
i dont know what to do anymore.....

this isnt me.....

who am i?

who have i become....

ive hurt people,lost loved family memebers,hurt myslef with drugs
lost total contact with my mother,sister and step dad....fucked over my real dad..when he was the only one whowould help......

why do i do these things that i know arnt right?

ive been taught way better then this...

mom im sry..

imissyousmuch.....imiss ur hugs and kisses...

i cant stop crying.....

im sick of struggling...

i hate being unmotiavted....

i know what i want,buti dont do it...

so much hate and anger...

i dont dare take it out on anyone...

so i take it all out on myslef...

theres no place left to call home...

no one left to tell i love you...

i allways hurt the ones i love...

why do i allways fail....

why must i allways hurt you and make u cry...