memories of the past...
heh.I've been thinking about the old times..again.
And this time i think its really gotten to me.
I remember all of my old friends and how much they have changed over the past year.Not in a bad or a good way..just changed.And it hurts to see some of them go.
Rita,I was thinking about you first.Because holidays are coming up and i remember last year we spent thanksgiving together at my dads.And you were even here on christmas eve.And my birthday party rocked last year.It wasnt that good for you and im sorry about everything.I wonder where you are and how your doing.Im happy for you and romella.I thinks it's kinda wierd but its great that you have someone who really cares about you.I miss you and i really do.See people im not as heartless as you think i am.I hope you miss th old times as much as i do.I luv you.
My friends have changed so much.Romella,melissa,nicole and bre are different people but its okay.It's not bad it's great.I still love them just the way they are.Ive changed alot too.Believe me.Im definatly not the same person i used to be.And one of the reasons is cuz of you guys.You people have made me stronger,happier.everything.And i love you for it.I love they way you are.Im sorry im suck a bitch.Dont you guys ever change.You are my best friends and i love you all.
I met new friends this year and lost old ones.Makes me sad to think about it really.I met the love of my life this year.Yes im talking about you kelvin stuart tipan lol.You have made my life so much easier but at the same time harder.I no longer have thoughts of suicide in my head becasue i have found love.I have found someone who really cares enough to say what he thinks of me and who trys to help me.Who wants to help me.You have made me a strong person.And i thank you for that.I dont know what i would do without you in my life.I dont know where i'd be at this moment if i never met you.I am so greatful to have you.But then again i've only known you for five months but it feels much longer.I have cried many times this year becasue of you.But who knows maybe i needed it.I needed to be told off.People dont usually tell me what they really think becasue they are scared of me.You are not scared.why should you be?lol.Well i love you so much i want you to know that.I hope you know that.Cuz i know you will always be here for me.
So rite now.I WANT PEOPLE TO COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT THEY REALLY THINK OF ME.aND I PROMISE I WONT GET MAD IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING HORRIBLE TO SAY.i'LL TAKE IT ALL IN.iT MAKES ME STRONGR.aND I WILL STILL LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU.FOREVER.
So dont worry about telling me that im a dumb bitch who needs to grow up becasue its true.I do.I really do need to grow up.I usually say alot of shit about other people and tell them they need to grow up.Like breanne, but hey i need to grow the fuck up too.Im not perfect.Im far from it.And i apologize to you breanne for all the shit that i said.I love you.Dont ever forget that.
Me and kelvin went to the promanade yesterday and i was looking into a store filled with christmas decorations.MAde me cry.I remember christmas at my dads house.We dont decorate anymore.It blows.We dont even get presents anymore...
Well it's time for me to be leaving.Stop complaining.Do something constructive instead of this.But remember.Comment and tell me what you think of me.Im opne to everyones opinions.<3 i love you all.
And this time i think its really gotten to me.
I remember all of my old friends and how much they have changed over the past year.Not in a bad or a good way..just changed.And it hurts to see some of them go.
Rita,I was thinking about you first.Because holidays are coming up and i remember last year we spent thanksgiving together at my dads.And you were even here on christmas eve.And my birthday party rocked last year.It wasnt that good for you and im sorry about everything.I wonder where you are and how your doing.Im happy for you and romella.I thinks it's kinda wierd but its great that you have someone who really cares about you.I miss you and i really do.See people im not as heartless as you think i am.I hope you miss th old times as much as i do.I luv you.
My friends have changed so much.Romella,melissa,nicole and bre are different people but its okay.It's not bad it's great.I still love them just the way they are.Ive changed alot too.Believe me.Im definatly not the same person i used to be.And one of the reasons is cuz of you guys.You people have made me stronger,happier.everything.And i love you for it.I love they way you are.Im sorry im suck a bitch.Dont you guys ever change.You are my best friends and i love you all.
I met new friends this year and lost old ones.Makes me sad to think about it really.I met the love of my life this year.Yes im talking about you kelvin stuart tipan lol.You have made my life so much easier but at the same time harder.I no longer have thoughts of suicide in my head becasue i have found love.I have found someone who really cares enough to say what he thinks of me and who trys to help me.Who wants to help me.You have made me a strong person.And i thank you for that.I dont know what i would do without you in my life.I dont know where i'd be at this moment if i never met you.I am so greatful to have you.But then again i've only known you for five months but it feels much longer.I have cried many times this year becasue of you.But who knows maybe i needed it.I needed to be told off.People dont usually tell me what they really think becasue they are scared of me.You are not scared.why should you be?lol.Well i love you so much i want you to know that.I hope you know that.Cuz i know you will always be here for me.
So rite now.I WANT PEOPLE TO COMMENT AND TELL ME WHAT THEY REALLY THINK OF ME.aND I PROMISE I WONT GET MAD IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING HORRIBLE TO SAY.i'LL TAKE IT ALL IN.iT MAKES ME STRONGR.aND I WILL STILL LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU.FOREVER.
So dont worry about telling me that im a dumb bitch who needs to grow up becasue its true.I do.I really do need to grow up.I usually say alot of shit about other people and tell them they need to grow up.Like breanne, but hey i need to grow the fuck up too.Im not perfect.Im far from it.And i apologize to you breanne for all the shit that i said.I love you.Dont ever forget that.
Me and kelvin went to the promanade yesterday and i was looking into a store filled with christmas decorations.MAde me cry.I remember christmas at my dads house.We dont decorate anymore.It blows.We dont even get presents anymore...
Well it's time for me to be leaving.Stop complaining.Do something constructive instead of this.But remember.Comment and tell me what you think of me.Im opne to everyones opinions.<3 i love you all.