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16th.....could have been 10... why do i do this....replaying everyday, every moment in my head...i would do anything to take things back that i did, take things back that you did to make me mad, it wasnt worth it, getting mad over stupid shit, making me loose you. it hurts so bad knowing i lost you for good..."its a lesson that you have been givin" i wish i didnt have this lesson...."this time is the last time"...so many lyrics and songs i wish i could play for you to show you how i feel, but you wont care, you dont care anymore, and thats what kills me inside. maybe someday you will realize how sorry i am, i wouldnt ever lie to you again, i lied to you twice, but i thought lying was the way to go, because i lied so you wouldnt hate me, i lied so you would still like me, maybe getting together with you at first, but obviosuly thats not how it went, either time. we went through so much stuff together, i couldnt have gotten through this time in my life without you, and its so hard going through life right now without you, but i am getting there...please forgive my mistakes, everyone in life makes mistakes, and mine were big, i know, but you need to sometimes forgive, and let things start over brand new...my life is going down hill once again, i need your help to bring it back up and you seem to be the only one in this whole world who can do that, and i think you have even proved to yourself that you are that person for me...remeber the times we woke up in eachothers arms, looking into eachothers eyes, tears that went down our cheeks, walking to the beach in eachothers arms to watch the sunset, and even our last day of you not hating me, having coffee, joking around, having the hugs where we fit perfectly together that we missed and loved... please, i would do anything for you to just forgive me, and have our times back together, happy.... i still have something that even says..."you're amazing, and no matter what, i will ALWAYS be there for you, no matter what, even if we hate eachother, i will be there for you, i have before, i will in the future, just call me on it, and i cant argue...." so you know what, i am calling you on it...please come back, please <3