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I haven't updated for awhile on this. I haven't really been up to anything besides working at the lovely Coldstone. It depresses me somewhat of the time. Either all of my friends are qutting or getting "let go" so i dunno what i'm gunna do. I wanna still work there but if it's not fun then what's the point? I guess I'm just afraid that my next job won't be fun. I just wanna graduate so that i can move on with my life and go away with captive free and see exactly what i want to do with my life.
I've also decided that i'm not ready for a boyfriend. Or at least the one that i almost had. He decided that he wasn't ready to date because he somewhat other feelings for someone else. And should i say that his feelings were for another guy. UH! gross me out. i find it really funny. How my freshman and sophmore year i had these "secret" boyfriends that no one really new about and they both cheated on me like no other and then i think i finally found a good guy and it turns out he wants to be gay. WOW. I just need to lay back i guess. And sometimes i wonder if there really is that prince charming out there. Like is there really someone out there that loves me. I have all these fun guy friends that i joke around with but none of them are like the "one". I guess i just have to wait my turn.
Plus i'm packing all of my stuff up. For awhile i thought i was just gunna quit high school and go find a band. Lifest really made me think alot. About how much i want to be in a band and just sing. But then again i'm so afraid. I realize i have an awsome talent but then again i guess i really have to play my cards the right way. (And might i add that i'm horrible at cards) so we'll see with that whole thing. But now i'm moving into our wonderful basement. My grandma decided she doesn't want to live in her apartment so i get booted out. O well. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. My parents are really trying to make the basement nice. It's going to be my "apartment" I'm trying to convince them that we should have a door down there leading out and in so i don't wake them up for school and bull crap that way. Dude you wanna know how sweet it would to have a door down there? like seriously. icould leave whenever i wanted. Once i graduate though i'm gunna move out. Where with what money i'm not sure but maybe someone will have an open room. It's just like i'm a bird who wants to fly in the sky so high but my wings are clipped and i can't get off the ground.
O well i feel better getting some of that stuff out. Friday night I'm hoping to get a bunch cool people together so that we can celebrate jackie's 16th birthday. If you want to come let me know!!! Just who ever is invited!!
L<3ve you! Krystina
I've also decided that i'm not ready for a boyfriend. Or at least the one that i almost had. He decided that he wasn't ready to date because he somewhat other feelings for someone else. And should i say that his feelings were for another guy. UH! gross me out. i find it really funny. How my freshman and sophmore year i had these "secret" boyfriends that no one really new about and they both cheated on me like no other and then i think i finally found a good guy and it turns out he wants to be gay. WOW. I just need to lay back i guess. And sometimes i wonder if there really is that prince charming out there. Like is there really someone out there that loves me. I have all these fun guy friends that i joke around with but none of them are like the "one". I guess i just have to wait my turn.
Plus i'm packing all of my stuff up. For awhile i thought i was just gunna quit high school and go find a band. Lifest really made me think alot. About how much i want to be in a band and just sing. But then again i'm so afraid. I realize i have an awsome talent but then again i guess i really have to play my cards the right way. (And might i add that i'm horrible at cards) so we'll see with that whole thing. But now i'm moving into our wonderful basement. My grandma decided she doesn't want to live in her apartment so i get booted out. O well. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. My parents are really trying to make the basement nice. It's going to be my "apartment" I'm trying to convince them that we should have a door down there leading out and in so i don't wake them up for school and bull crap that way. Dude you wanna know how sweet it would to have a door down there? like seriously. icould leave whenever i wanted. Once i graduate though i'm gunna move out. Where with what money i'm not sure but maybe someone will have an open room. It's just like i'm a bird who wants to fly in the sky so high but my wings are clipped and i can't get off the ground.
O well i feel better getting some of that stuff out. Friday night I'm hoping to get a bunch cool people together so that we can celebrate jackie's 16th birthday. If you want to come let me know!!! Just who ever is invited!!
L<3ve you! Krystina