The end is here
I finally got a hold of Jeremy today after we were playing phone tag. We were talking like the old times and Christina was all cool to. Then the subject of you came up, and I was just talking about how I like you, and that I am glad we are together, but there was one question on my mind that Jeremy might be able to answer. I asked him if you said anything to him about wanting to be with me. At first he wanted to be very vague on the conversation, then he noticed how upset I was. He told me that you didn’t know how you wanted to tell me, you just wanted to be friends. Then the first thought that crossed my mind was everything fits together now. Now I understand why you try to avoid me when I asked you to hang out and etc. I understand you are confused about your senior year and that you don’t want anything serious. I didn’t plan on being hardcore lets get married serious with you. I just wanted to have fun, and I was even scared to get with you because I was afraid of this. I’m sorry that you didn’t think you could talk to me about this, I’m sorry that I got in the way of things. I’m sorry that everything this past week was a lie. I’m sorry for being a bad girlfriend. I’m even sorry that you even liked me. So pretty much I’m guessing you are catching on why I am saying this. But, I told Jeremy I was going to make this easier on you because you didn’t want to be the dick, so I’ll be the bitch. And for the record I never thought you were dick. I’m saying goodbye. Andy I hope you find a girl that is better then me, that doesn’t make you feel this way. But thanks for the good times and I’ll miss you so much, like you wouldn’t believe. So, I know that you are going to say I’m sorry and all of that, but don’t because it will just make it worse. So I guess I am saying goodbye Andy and that Ill see you around.
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That is what I said to Andy last night. I think was one of the hardest things that I had to do in a long time. Then thing is I really like him and still do. The tears just start to flow to even think of the good times with him. When he tells me it’s not my fault and I have no reason to be sorry, I’m just like fuck you. Because we all know that’s a load of shit when someone says that to you. I don’t think that he understands what I am going through on my part. No this part is the best, Meghan we can still be friends and hang out. Doesn’t ever relationship end like that?
Thank you Jeremy for being honest with me, its better that I know now, then if I found out later.
Thank you Mickey for being there to listen when you probably didn’t want to because you were working on your collage or however you spell it. It means so much to me that you just sat there and listened to me. I promise will party somewhere else.
Last night was even harder when my friend Pete called after he got off work, he was like have you been crying, and I had to lie and pretend everything was fine. Because he would flip out that I was crying, because he always says that I need to be a tough girl. And when he said that, all I thought about was “hey team get tough, hey team get tough.” Lol
Signing off… Meghan
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That is what I said to Andy last night. I think was one of the hardest things that I had to do in a long time. Then thing is I really like him and still do. The tears just start to flow to even think of the good times with him. When he tells me it’s not my fault and I have no reason to be sorry, I’m just like fuck you. Because we all know that’s a load of shit when someone says that to you. I don’t think that he understands what I am going through on my part. No this part is the best, Meghan we can still be friends and hang out. Doesn’t ever relationship end like that?
Thank you Jeremy for being honest with me, its better that I know now, then if I found out later.
Thank you Mickey for being there to listen when you probably didn’t want to because you were working on your collage or however you spell it. It means so much to me that you just sat there and listened to me. I promise will party somewhere else.
Last night was even harder when my friend Pete called after he got off work, he was like have you been crying, and I had to lie and pretend everything was fine. Because he would flip out that I was crying, because he always says that I need to be a tough girl. And when he said that, all I thought about was “hey team get tough, hey team get tough.” Lol
Signing off… Meghan