we`ve been 2 strong for 2 long*and i cant be without you baby
wow, what an intresting past couple of weeks, ive been so "ugh" latley all i can do now is thank god for my friends. ive given up on relationships, i swear im just done with them, i have nothing to give to anyone, and it seems everything i give is never good enough. all that i have to offer is nothing, not even love cause i wont give that away, and the one time i take the chance, it got me nowhere.
one more week till winter vacation, then i can relax and just chill with my friends, maybe i`ll start the job hunt again. i love the christmas season, im just in a better mood lol. i finally got my car insurance! and my parents are putting a down payment on a four door pickup truck for me in 2 months, once they finish paying off the KIA we had. so a car is a late xmas present lol yay
so its final, once i graduate im moving to orlando and im either going to Valencia or Santa Fe, either way i`ll be closer to josh so im happy about that. but my parents and me decided to put the place up for rent again during this time of the year next year and move right after graduation. i cant wait to get away from coral springs, plus lillian is going to orlando for college, and we`ll both have cars to get sony every weekend. i honestly found the friends im going to have until i die. i know alot of people think that the friends they have now are always going to be there , but if their not always there NOW they wont ever be later, thats how i know my three friendships are true, sonjas always there through everything, and i can call lilly anytime crying and she`ll fix it and chany, we may not even get to see her all thetime but when we do, its like we`ve seen eachother everyday for the past 3 years weve been friends. latley ive been depending on this to get me through, and it works. and i mean the three of them are my best friends, but i have some amazing friends, they all know who they are, i depend on them as much as anything, even tho ive been through alot of drama with some of them, we know that its done now and thats all that matters. i just wish one of my friends would wake up and understand his life and not just throw it away, and theres nothing i can do about it, and i hate that.
one more week till winter vacation, then i can relax and just chill with my friends, maybe i`ll start the job hunt again. i love the christmas season, im just in a better mood lol. i finally got my car insurance! and my parents are putting a down payment on a four door pickup truck for me in 2 months, once they finish paying off the KIA we had. so a car is a late xmas present lol yay
so its final, once i graduate im moving to orlando and im either going to Valencia or Santa Fe, either way i`ll be closer to josh so im happy about that. but my parents and me decided to put the place up for rent again during this time of the year next year and move right after graduation. i cant wait to get away from coral springs, plus lillian is going to orlando for college, and we`ll both have cars to get sony every weekend. i honestly found the friends im going to have until i die. i know alot of people think that the friends they have now are always going to be there , but if their not always there NOW they wont ever be later, thats how i know my three friendships are true, sonjas always there through everything, and i can call lilly anytime crying and she`ll fix it and chany, we may not even get to see her all thetime but when we do, its like we`ve seen eachother everyday for the past 3 years weve been friends. latley ive been depending on this to get me through, and it works. and i mean the three of them are my best friends, but i have some amazing friends, they all know who they are, i depend on them as much as anything, even tho ive been through alot of drama with some of them, we know that its done now and thats all that matters. i just wish one of my friends would wake up and understand his life and not just throw it away, and theres nothing i can do about it, and i hate that.