i dont wanna go an other day... so im telling u exactly wat is on my mind...

[xxrock_my_socks]

ive taken on way more than i can handle... im mad confused & im hurt and i dont feel like dealing with it anymore. i hate people who judge you without knowing that for once your not the one who fucked up. yeah thats right for once allys not the one who messed up a perfectly fine relationship. it makes me wonder it really does....

does he ever think about me? not in a romantic sense but just in general , does he even care anymore? not in a romantic sense...but just in general.

i shouldnt even be thinking about this.

there are too many guys right now.. i cant handle it and i cant even drop one.. im addicted. i dont want that to sound slutty .. i just dont know what i want now.. after that whole last weekend situation ( everybody basically knows now) im so screwed up and im hurt i just dont know... i dont show it but i think about it all the time.. how do u try to control somebody then act like its all ok?

i just wanna be happy... not like happy.. but geniunely happy. its never gonna happen tho is it?