Nov 06, 2005 11:33
*There are times in life when friends betray, and you have two people who will always be there to make sense of things. But what happens when those two people are the ones who are the ones who caused the problems. Simple understanding and listening can make all the difference. If only we all took time to think of things from a different aspect. We all know we have different aspects on life and how to do things. The problem is now, those two people who have been there since you can remember, have driven you to depression and hate. They try to fix things, and they TRY to understand, but even though they've gone through this before, we don't think they understand at all. But it hurts to know that they know more, and that they've gone through this, and that they know what to do. But our own disrespect and stubbornness shields that from us, and the comfort of family is welded into irritability and quarrells. There are times where you'll want to be free, but then you realize, it's not that easy. You threaten to run away, and they open the door for you. They try to help in bad times, and they ask what is the matter. And the answer has become "YOU!". Countless times have I wanted to leave, have I wanted to flee. Where would I go? Where would I sleep? Where would I eat? It all seems so real and scary, but in the blink of an eye, you remember, we have time, time to fix things and love one another. Simple arguements, that could've been avoided by listening and using respect.
This leads me to the compare and contrast of band.....and family..
In band and a family you have to stick together. Otherwise, all hell breaks lose. Sometimes, there's a tragedy, and it brings the family back together, or sometimes something glorious happens, and you rejoice as a family. one group. One unit. Lets take a death for an example. A family that has quarrells and hate, fights over who gets the house and the money and all the like. They forget what has happened, because they are too caught up in rumors and past problems and bad relationships.
In comparison to band, remember last year? When we received a three in marching festival and concert festival? Sure we were mad at the judges, but we were so caught up in gossip and rumors that we started to blame the drum majors and the section leaders, and even the administration. Towards the end of the year there were certain groups of people within the band that fought with each other. Little tight knit groups within our tight knit group of band. Rumors and gossip and lies, it was like ALL OUT WAR.
But this year, we worked our asses off, got a 1, and rejoiced as one family, one unit. No blames were casted to anyone about anything, no rumors, no lies, nothing. We are so much different then how we used to be. Do we really want to go back to the old ways of last year? Because it's starting up again. All I can say is please take this seriously. Because rumors and lies are starting again, and it needs to all stop. Because I myself, am getting fed up with it. And I am very sure I am not the only one who is also tired of this non sense. Lets try to make this year better than last year. Because it was hell. Just take a moment to think about all this. It makes a very great deal of sense.* Lets get out of the train of that of LAST YEAR. It's THIS YEAR now. We're all very intelligent and gifted people. Let's use our gifts wisely, and we can accomplish amazing things this year. :)
Also, I want to say, thank you. to my best friends Robyn and Billy for being the best friends they possibly can. I owe you both big time.
And Thank you Rachel, you've been the best girlfriend ever, I love you so much
--Exhausted, stressed, but yet, optimistic.
-----Josh