..Hate is Baggage..
So we watched amercian history X tonite, UnCUT..Its such a good movie, Kinda scares me though. Because i think that Josh could walk down that path if he isnt careful. I hope not, because hes really cool and i wouldnt want to see him dead.
So Everett is supposed to be coming over. We're fine now i guess, I dunno. It seems like he is wanting to mess around, or at least make out, and im not ready for that. I jus dont know. Im scared cuz hes kissed and did whatever else w/ all those girls that im gonna suck at kissing or whatever. So that reason alone makes me not want too ya know? I dont really know myself.
I think i may love him, and i know he knows. He found the picture on his sunroof. And Last night he said something about "You know you love me" and my reply was yeah so what. So what is exactly right. You dont love me back. I've been tempted to ask him if he does. Because, well i want to know. I cant look at him w/ out smiling. I love him. I dont want to say it because i dont want the feelings to go away.
What is love? I mean really? Is that what a felt for marc? I dont know, We dont even talk anymore, I find myself watching what i say..So i dont get ignored or blocked. If you think about it, im like Leeanna and Justin, Only Marc wasnt abusive. I dont think i loved marc. No, maybe i did. I think it was more of a obsessive love or something. Who knows.
Im really confused right now...