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I don't know what's going on at the moment.
I'm trying to be happy. Trying to be ok. Trying to help people. But all I can do is cry. I have cried far too much over the last couple of days. My eyes are so heavy.
There is so much in my mind at the moment, but I can't (won't) talk about it. No need to worry anyone else.
Suicidal thoughts are back again. I woke up this morning for my lab and the first thing I thought about was just killing myself so I don't have to deal with this anymore. I am so scared.
I don't think that I want to die, it just seems like the best option. You know, to leave all of this pain and hurt behind. I don't know.
I'm trying to be happy. Trying to be ok. Trying to help people. But all I can do is cry. I have cried far too much over the last couple of days. My eyes are so heavy.
There is so much in my mind at the moment, but I can't (won't) talk about it. No need to worry anyone else.
Suicidal thoughts are back again. I woke up this morning for my lab and the first thing I thought about was just killing myself so I don't have to deal with this anymore. I am so scared.
I don't think that I want to die, it just seems like the best option. You know, to leave all of this pain and hurt behind. I don't know.